Dimension of Panorama V6 :: Queen of the Condemned

2004-10-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

hello all ^^ i've change blog: idealism-kills.blogspot.com

in a few days time i'll shut this blog down completely, since i've posted stuff a lot of people probably haven't seen yet. hehe. enjoy ^^

-basket case.

2004-10-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

Which Naruto character are you?

Clever, obnoxious, and cocky, you are definitely Naruto Uzumaki! Yes, of course you must be loud too. How else would the world know that your ego is bigger than theirs? You’re the type of person that loves challenges and never refuses them, but with your competitive nature, you sometimes can be a bit too immature. Damn that ego, it’s the cause of all your problems! Your feisty disregard for authority gets you in trouble a lot, especially when a statue with its head intact exists. Nevertheless, that confidence and rebelliousness when mixed together with determination is a potent blend and can allow you to reach great heights (such as the top of that statue). You are also resourceful and clever, finding new uses or methods from the most worthless objects. But calm down a bit will ya? Like Monica Lewinsky, a little discretion won’t hurt.

hehe ^_^

2004-10-18T18:44:00.000+08:00

THREE THINGS YOU ARE SCARED OF:
01 | no more homosexual people in the world (both genders ^^)
02 | Glico or Pokka closes down O_O
03 | --;; singapore bans anime and all related to it.. squeak..
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | bernard
02 | alex
03 | annette
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | internet
02 | manga/anime
03 | myself (hai. i'm a thing ^^)
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | people who are completely banal and lack creativity when trying to insult me, or anyone.
02 | people who think they're pretty/cool/sexy, but aren't. *coughvikiecough*
03 | shallowness.
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THREE THINGS I DON’T UNDERSTAND:
01 | why adults are so contradictory and illogical but rule the damn world anyway
02 | why we have to respect our elders but we never receive much in return
03 | why people are so obsessive about God. (--;; note i used OBSESSIVE =3)
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THREE THINGS ON MY (computer) DESK: (it’s at school, so it’s not mine, but …)
01 | blank CDs
02 | weird mousepad i don't use xD
03 | greenday lyrics booklet
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THREE THINGS I’M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | doing this >_>
02 | listening to greenday ^^
03 | living.
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | get revirginized xD
02 | fulfill my dream of becoming a successful fashion mag editor/journalist/novelist/rock star
03 | turn everyone against me.
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | read between the lines
02 | insult people CREATIVELY
03 | give people scary looks
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | cynical
02 | distorted
03 | obscene
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THREE THINGS I CAN’T DO:
01 | complete more than a chapter of any plot, fanfiction or otherwise.
02 | study.
03 | play sports to save my life or any ability beyond that.
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | GreenDay - "Wake Me Up When September Ends"
02 | Gundam Seed Destiny - "Reason"
03 | Gackt - "Vanilla" (they all start with G xD)
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THREE THINGS I DON’T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | ANY anime dubbed
02 | my singing ^^
03 | annette's singing ^_^!
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | Whatever.
02 | ...Bah.
03 | Insipid dinosaur/cretin/imbecile/moron
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | pocky.
02 | chocolate.
03 | boys. ^^
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THREE THINGS YOU’D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | Japanese
02 | to be able to draw super well. SURPASS.. kaori yuki, clamp, 'natsuki takaya', etc.
03 | to be able to write a novel along the lines of Interview with the Vampire
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | coke
02 | pepsi twist ^^
03 | blood!
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | ...sailor moon. dubbed. oo;; the horrors.
02 | magic knight rayearth
03 | crayon shin-chan (anime fan since a little toddler ^^)
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DESCRIBE YOUR..
[ x ] Wallet - black. leather. was my dad's.
[ x ]. hairbrush - blue.
[ x ] Toothbrush - er. white, green, has black stuff growing on one end.
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - none >_>
[ x ] Pillow cover - white with flowers ^^
[ x ] Coffee Cup - >_>
[ x ] Sunglasses - none ^^
[ x ] Underwear - normal. white. low-rise.
[ x ] Favorite shirt - uhhm.. >_> don't have one.
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - none >________>
[ x ] Favorite CD - Greenday - American Idiot, Evanescence - Fallen and Origin, Pink - Misunderstood (M!zzunderztood or something >_>)
[ x ] Tattoos - noneee~~
[ x ] Piercings - ears. two each. getting another~~~~!
[ x ] In my mouth - my tongue >_>
[ x ] In my head - a load of rubbish ^^
[ x ] Wishing - for a lot of things >_> that jojo will hurry up and admit he's uh.. never mind.
[ x ] After this - dinner, more comp.
[ x ] Fetishes - none.
[ x ] Person(s) - hah?
[ x ] Is next to you - an empty space. nearest thing's a wardrobe though
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - White Chicks, The Wishing Stairs .. hmm.. >_> some others
[ x ] Something you’re looking forward to - saintsational fair ^^ and the acceptance of the flying fox!
[ x ] The last thing you ate - mcds.
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - uh. loss of creativity.
[ x ] Do you like candles - no --;; they suck!
[ x ] Do you like incense - no. makes me dizzy.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - yesh ^^
[ x ] Do you believe in love - no >_>
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - no.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - no. heh.
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - no. it's PARADISE. =^_^=
[ x ] Do you believe in God - Yes.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - uhmm. cremated and placed in a pretty black satin-coated box with a picture of all my beloved anime boys next to me ^^
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - me ^_^
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - ah. Wolf ^^. or a snake~
[ x ] What is the latest you’ve ever stayed up - >_> 5:30 am.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - duh.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite animals - wolves, snakes, tigers, owlets (x3), dogs.
[ x ] Least liked animals - hamsters and all related >_> chinchillas, gerbils, blah. hehe.

2004-10-18T17:39:00.000+08:00

You Are Shikamaru.

Which Naruto Student Are You?

PersonalityType..
got the quiz from here

You are a WRDF--Wacky Rational Destructive Follower. This makes you a Hacker.

Your thirst for knowledge can be damaging to your possessions--you like to take things apart, even if you then forget to put them back together. You demand respect and, no matter how much you are respected, seldom feel it is adequate. You are tenacious, and will stick to a task long after weaker minds have given it up.

Socially, you are awkward, and get into arguments and make people uncomfortable. One recommends counting to ten, holding back comments unless warranted, and listening more than speaking. Still, your no-holds-barred approach to socialization can be strangely endearing, as long as you are funny and self-deprecating.

You feel misunderstood, and you probably are.

Of the 44275 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 2.7 % are this type.

mwaha. xD

SECONDRESULT..

You are a WRCF--Wacky Rational Constructive Follower. This makes you a Paul Begala.

You are unflappable and largely unconcerned with others' reactions to you. You were not particularly interested in the results of this test, and probably took it only as a result of someone else asking you to.

You have a biting wit and intense powers of observation. No detail is lost on you, and your friends know it--relying on you to have the facts when others express only opinions. You are even-tempered, friendly, and educated. Foolish strangers may mistake your mildness for weakness--they will be surprised.

You entire approach to life is enviable. You will raise good kids.

Of the 44275 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 5.1 % are this type.

You are the

Guardian of the Night

Some Guardians: Koryu (Wish), Rath (Dragon
Knights), Schuldig (Weiss Kreuz), Ilpalazo
(Excel Saga), Urd (Oh My Goddess), Kaido
(Prince of Tennis), Xellos (Slayers)

Which Immortal are You?
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heeehee ^^ Schuldig! Kaidoh! waii..

_____

terms:
cocrophillia - marked interest in excrement
necrophillia - sexual interest in dead people >_> (already knew that from ludwig)
frotteurism - need to masturbate by rubbing against strangers x)
klismaphillia - or something. o-o something to do with needing enema. whatever that is.
mysophillia - a dependency on stuff like used menstrual pads and soiled undies. x)
scoptophillia - voyeurism without the surreptitiousness. er. yeah.
urophillia - >_> dependently responsive to people peeing. o_O
to describe someone, just change the 'lia' to 'lic' for all except 'frotteurism'. that i don't know >_> good guide to insultin' someone. gahahah.

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	60% Explored the pleasures of the flesh	65.1%
Shamelessness	71.4% It takes a couple of drinks	79.3%
Sex Drive	76.3% The Pope is envious	77.7%
Straightness	58.9% Felt someone up once	44.8%
Gayness	89.3% Repressed, are we?	83.7%
Fucking Sick	77.9% Refreshingly normal	90%
You are 70.08% pure Average Score: 72.7%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

2004-10-18T16:13:00.000+08:00

lalala.

it's my turn to be bored! i haven't been bored in ages. mwahahaha. i've taken a liking to gothic lolita dresses ^_^ am producing EGL drawings like nobody's business. cept majority of em are not worth showing to the world.

harhar. i just walked out on my tuition teacher. stupid nagging thing. what crap about studying over holidays. study freakin' schedule?! ya know. there's this weird logic with adults.

statement: you shouldn't just study for the sake of exams.

then why study at all? and then when we DON'T study, we get crap marks and they yell at us. damn them.

-basket case.

2004-10-18T11:46:00.000+08:00

mwahahaha. i actually went shopping with mother dearest yesterday. here are my purchases...

greenday - american idiot
alter bridge - one day remains
fruits basket 5 ( GYAHAHAHAHAH! last copy)
betsucomi (11/2004)
randomshoujomangamagazing>_> (10/2004) ((i think it's betsucomi too.))
prince of tennis 2 (mwaha. second last copy XD)
two pairs of purdy earrings and a cute shoe-like keychain-watch ._. weird.

hehehe. went to watch white chicks too >_> terribly satirical, and is meant in the best way possible. hahaha.
I am so~ frickin~ pissed xD
It's not just a bag. it's ~~CONVERSE~~ PRADA =3

luffly lines ^_^

i think i bought other things too. >_> don't remember em though.

oh yeah. visited house o' socks. taka's one didn't have that many socks >_>

haha.. yesterday i saw a total of FOUR people wearing the seigaku tennis club shirts. TT so jealous.. i think mao has it too. but i think hers is the jersey or something. wahaha. JEALOUSY KILLS.. .>_> others. not me. MWAAA. soon sonia shall meet the grim reaper ._.

-basket case

2004-10-15T14:34:00.000+08:00

My angst tastes like...

Orange
Find your angst's flavor

hah.

don't turn your back on me.

i won't be ignored.

harhar.

-basket case.

2004-10-13T15:22:00.000+08:00

ahaha.

i think i flunked geography >_> i answered rubbish for all the questions xD history too... answered rubbish for all the structured questions -_-;

hehe. i watched pot episode 132. xDD utter insanity.

shuuko (shuuichiro) - scary mama
sadaharu - henpecked daddy
momoko (momoshiro) - tomboy toddler
kaoru - baby
eiji - cat
fuji - grandma
tezuka- grandad (a must see. xDDDDDDD omgwtfbbq it's too hilarious o_O gakuto talk!)
kawamura - SUSHI MAN~!!!

yeah. xD

insanity, i tell you. insanity.

after i finished my geog paper i drew a piccie and wrote two poems XDD yay!

-basket case.

2004-10-12T15:41:00.000+08:00

...i like naruto. xD

yep. going to be another big obsession thing for me soon i think. after i watch 70 more episodes of it.. xDD gahaha. going to get em from darren on saturday.. hopefully he remembers... don't really think you can miss out a whole stack of cds like that though >_>

hannah's watched naruto before =3 yayyy. going to find more people who likes naruto >_> .. hm. i just realized angelina hasn't been coming on lately. probably some crapass thing with her laptop xD or maybe it's just exams. poor thing.

Luffed charcters in Naruto~
Naruto (duh -_-;)
Shikamaru =D
Kiba (and Akamaru~~ ^_^)
the insect guy (need to find out his name >_>)
Neiji (coolness. xD)
Rock Lee (weird. but cool =3 EYEBROWS! xDDD)
Kakashi-sensei
Iruka-sensei
Anko
Inner Sakura
Udon XD
Gaara
Zabuza T.T
Haku T_T
Chouji xD (UNDERWEAR ON HEAD.. xDD gahaha.)

In other words. Just about all the males + Anko - Sasuke. XD Inner Sakura doesn't count cuz she's an alter-ego =3 I'm up to episode 30, just so you know =3

Not-so-luffed characters in Naruto~
Sasuke
Hinata >_> crappy, weak-willed thingie. never heard of confidence, i suppose. gwah.
Moegi >_>
Konohamaru >_> one little kid of annoyingness. xD
Sasuke
Sakura
Ino
....did i mention Sasuke?

Yeah. don't like sasuke (unless he's sleepin' with any of the male characters in Naruto =3).. arrogant little prick >_> much like those stoopid acs cretins. mwahahaha. and i notice he sits the same way all the time and the shirt HAS TO GO... xD armband things are nice though.

hm. need to study geography later. err.. CRAM.. for geography later. mwahahaha. maybe i should just be shikamaru and don't bother.. >_>

-basket case.

2004-10-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

I realize...I am a very blessed person.

ZZZZZZRP.

Stop! That proves I've been reading too much Fruit's Basket. Stop with the Tohruness. I am not a blessed person. I had you going there, didn't I? =3

right.

xD

I have completed the portraits of me, annette, alex, natasha (one picture), jean, julia, tessa, hannah (one picture), jo, llama, mai and gushi (one picture) =3 wahahaha. i fixed alex's leg, although her foot still looks weird >_>

watched more naruto and now my imagination goes into overtime. hehe. all Kakashi's damn fault anyway. Hm. I adore Haku. I cried when he died. I even cried when Sasuke damn died, even though I hate that bastard. Gyeh. Dunno what's wrong with me.

Zabuza x Haku forever.
Kakashi x Iruka forever~~
which leaves Naruto and Sasuke to each other, Sakura and Ino, and Shikamaru can go orgy with his other boyfriends (Kiba, Neji, etc.). mwahahaha. =) everybody's happily happy. Except Hinata. Hinata can go rot and die. Bleahhh.

I'm never becoming a ninjaaaa~~ @_@ so much work. cannot cry (double d'oh), cannot let enemy get behind you, cannot blah blah blah.. eeerg. HARD WORK.. i'm sticking to drawing and rotting in front of the computer screen with a pint or a hundred of chooclate icecream. =3

meh ish such a lazy bum. xD autographs later, please.

-basket case.

MP3 playlist as of 91004:

Accidentally in Love
Nounai Moruhine
Lola Stars and Stripes
Hard Act to Follow
I <3 U
Be Shiny (Kimeru~ ^_^)
Ima Made Nando mo
Yakusoku
Truth (Minagawa Junko)
Crying Sky
Minna Koko ni Ita
Ready Steady Go
Scarlet
Ryuuseigun
Meisei
Cross With You
Perfect Game
Aoi Honoo xDD yanagisawa rapping is just... weird.
Shinjitsu
Imaginary (Evanescence)
??????? <--some random song i brilliantly forgot the title of =)
Haru no Ao
Eternal Snow (Route L version)
Forever (Chobits) ~_~ one of the best songs in the world~~~~~
Get Free [remix]

i want a 256 MB-er. scratch that I WANT MY DAMN ZEN!!! *glares at bernard* you owe me. mwahaha.

2004-10-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

This Lifetime

Things are goin' through my mind
Guess I'll never be happy this lifetime
Don't think the sun'll ever come to play and shine
Happiness in this lifetime? - (Negative)

So many things are goin' wrong
Why does this lifetime seem too long (for it's own good)
Stuck in the middle of life
So much time to complain and gripe

Stuff is weighing down my soul
Don't know how low I can go
Don't think I know how to say 'no'
Guess I'll never find happiness this lifetime

This lifetime..

--------- BAH------------
-basket case

2004-10-09T14:21:00.000+08:00

This world is SCREWED... -_-; nowhere is Green day's American Idiot or Alter Bridge's Open Your Eyes ANYWHERE to be found (for free, online xD). crappy. bleah. i'm going to buy Alter Bridge's CD.. whatsitsname.. er... One Day Remains. yeah. going to add those onto meh wishlist. mwahaha.

MSN is still under bleeding maintainence.. bleeding moronic, i tell you...

Hm. I feel like borrowing Hilary Duff's new CD from someone and torturing myself. not a very pretty sight to see after i'm dead. blood all coming out from the ears.. >D Sonia listens to weird music i've never heard of. But they're good =) listening to Lola Star and Stripes by The Stills. Might be the other way around but.. whatever. xDD

Darren Hayes ain't bad. 'I'm willin' to sleep my way to the top; I want to be pop...ular~' mwahaha. shall see if anybody has his CD.

Hm. Shall check out Rouge Wave sometime... i want the Moulin Rouge CD... ._. not want. NEED.

ehe. o_O working on a slam dunk fic (which i ain't gonna actually complete in this lifetime) titled Bad Hair Day. MitOC.. OC has this .. obsesssion for hair.. o_O right.

-basket case.

2004-10-09T09:07:00.000+08:00

Someone tell me what's the DEAL with cells. Crap about cytoplasms and paramecium and whatnots -_-; i don't get this?!!! and in no way are human cheek cells and onion cells related except for the fact that they're bleeding cells! -_-;;;;

bleah.

2004-10-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

Eerg. So bloody sleepy >_> and it's only 9:17.. must have been all the free periods today. were like seven. p.e, science, IT and psg (counts as free periods, not like anyone cares what you do). bleah. i did more manga portraits of everyone =) nat, alex, me, annette: the classier rebels. xD all decked up in metal, leather and PVC. mwahaha.

i just drew the four stooges =) jean, julia, tessa and hannah, that is. hannah's all boy-lookin'.. .was thinking of her wearing those boy's boardshorts and stuff. julia's tooo cute. -_-; like some friggin' brat princess.

going to draw gushi, jo, mai and llama in another one too =)

the four stooges' apparel is a lot more casual than ours though. hehe. annette's is pretty. all decked in bling bling and fat cat in chinese xDD fei mao. mwahaha. i drew 'dysfunctional' on my neck, fei mao on annette's stomach, natootz on natasha's stomach and hornster on alex's leg xD fluffin' bitch on tessa (plan to anyway. need to find someplace to fit) and superstar across jean's collarbone. frog for hannah >_> julia i have no idea. hafta ask her i guess. hannah too. frog doesn't fit someone as cool-lookin' as that. xD i went for the dyed-fringe look.

my hair's all pretty in a bun clip, with half of it all flooped down though o.O riight.

all in all, today was GOOD DAY because i drew a nice picture =) and had lots of fun. i also wrote another 'i am numb. i hate you.' piecelet. i coined that word. piecelet. now don't you run off with it, you twittering doofus.

all of you.

twittering doofus.

yes, annette, that means you too.

gyeh.

i have a splitting headache. >_< *massages self* must be jonathan cursing me. bleah.

-basket case.

2004-10-07T16:48:00.000+08:00

hm. WAHAHAHAHA. i located my maths textbook. it was in my gundam seed bag along with the play costumes -_-;; dunno how it got there... it was there along with my geog textbook and science worksheet.

i seriously need to study science. i know squat about sec 1 science, man.. xDDD

geog too.

history i've already done. i like history. it's just the teacher i can really do without.

we didn't do a lot of studying today. xD natasha, alex, me, annette, siyi. all gabbering like idiots about yujin and mark. more yujin. lots more yujin. =) i'm working on a mini comic strip of yujin and siyi and the rest of us. xD y and s are on a date.

mwahaha.

we stayed behind until 2:30 or so to talk more crap =) alex and annette were doing their letters. =^_^= i finished mine during math. wrote utter crap.

passed darren his layout. mwahaha. chobits. my ninth layout, i think. =) nearly wanted to keep it for myself.

i need to study.

i need to study.

where is my motivation!?!

eaten up by dogs, probably.

gahaha.

-basket case.

2004-10-06T20:11:00.000+08:00

I hate him.

I hate him.

I HATE HIM! DAIKIRI!

him. jonathan. what's-his-face. damn him. damn him to the DEEPEST hells.

he acts as if he fucking KNOWS me. whatever. or us, for that matter (us being annette, tessa and the gang). He doesn't even KNOW ALL OUR NAMES. Fuck him.

Wait. scratch that.

he can FUCK HIMSELF.

i hate him.

i hate him so much.

i told him i wasn't.

he doesn't believe me, obviously, but that's his stupid little business. he can tell the whole world for all i care. he can tell bloody sensei for all i care. it's not like anybody would think i'm CAPABLE of doing such a thing. just because i'm 13. doesn't mean i'm not capable of breaking someone's heart. doesn't mean i'm not capable of killing someone. doesn't mean i'm not capable of having sex. doesn't mean i'm not capable of dying. doesn't mean i'm not fucking capable of going on a one-way train to HELL.

it doesn't.

don't underestimate me.

i won't care if i break your heart, because you are NOTHING to me. you're worth as much as singapore is on the world map. you're worth even less, in fact. you are an INSIGNIFICANT BASTARD.

what's wrong with my temperament? absolutely nothing.

what's my problem? you.

i hate everything i know about him. don't give me that holierthanthoujustcuzimfiveyearsolderphysicallybutfifteenmillionlightyearsyoungerthanyou crap attitude. it doesn't make you cool. it makes you look like a complete IDIOT.

i hate you, jonathan. i don't care that you're probably never going to read this (if you do, then all the better.), i'll say it again.

i hate you, jonathan.

i hate you so much.

-basket case

2004-10-06T18:26:00.000+08:00

which chinese symbol are you?
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hmm. the character for love was in fan ti zi. bleah. majority of the world knows that i think... stoopid singapore teach us zian ti zi make us look like idiots xD

2004-10-06T16:44:00.000+08:00

I did it =3 Yay to me! I did it! XDDDD Now I can enjoy my pretty Lain layout =3 mwohohoho.

-basket case.

2004-10-06T15:07:00.000+08:00

BLEAH. this is crap.

seriously.

does anyone know to transfer all my previous posts ON to this div layer? everytime i try to make a blogskin it turns out this way -_-;; dammnit.

please, someone help >_<

2004-10-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

...hm. Does anyone know how to make my previous posts go ONTO the div layer and not behind it???????? >_<

2004-10-03T17:13:00.000+08:00

song obsessed with - "Yakusoku" from X (sung by Kamui).

it's such a beautiful song.

and i really need to get down to changing this layout. it's getting so old.

and opiang.

hehe.

-skyldig

2004-10-03T14:02:00.000+08:00

You know...I just realized how I shouldn't waste my life, sometimes.

Hmm.

Oh well.

I finally talked to Ruki/Karmi. I'm posing as a BOY. xD a very charming one, at that. And I'm acting interested in her and calling her cute.. and she confides in me already.. I feel so bad..

but.. oh well.

^^ she should realize that boys don't refer to themselves as 'boys'.. usually..

-skyldig

2004-10-01T17:57:00.000+08:00

w00t. search is back up.

Your date is Sanzo...He's hot.You'll love him.
Too bad,but he's MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Date with a saiyuki boy (Updated!)
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Loner- Well... not necessarily a loner... maybe
just... a lonely kind of person? Not to be
mean, but being solitary didn't do good for
Emily Dickinson. She kind of went crazy.

What kind of stereo-typical girl are you?
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harahar.

Ken~You're optomistic and just want to live life to
the fullest. You care a lot about your
friends. You are also sweet and sensitive!
You also seem to have bad experiences in your
love life.

Which Sexy Weiss Kreuz Boy Are YOU????
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*snort*

2004-10-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

Your Seigaku Match is... Kikumaru Eiji! The plaster
boy of Seigaku! (Ok, acrobatic boy...). He's so
hyper that you'll never be bored on your
dates~! Did i mention that he's SOO cute too?!
XD Demo..you must learn to love his childish
nature~ or else you might find yourself getting
irritated by his somewhat insensitive nature...

Who Is Your Tenipuri Match? ~Seigaku~
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Your Hyotei Match Is... Akutagawa Jirou! The
happy-go-lucky volleyer~ You'll probably have a
great time with Jirou! He's good at making
people laugh and you would certainly enjoy some
happy moments with him! (But perhaps he may
fall asleep during a date or sth.. =X)

Who Is Your TeniPuri Match? ~Hyotei~
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-cynically stupid

2004-09-30T20:11:00.000+08:00

Ah yes. And the paragraph dedicated to Sonia (i always run into at recess. odd.):

sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia! sonia!

mwahahaha.

2004-09-30T20:07:00.000+08:00

Hiee.. I was so nervous on what mrs ang was going to say on my columnist article. she liked it a lot, but she asked me quite concerned, that whether i really wanted to 'reveal' so much of myself to the whole school. hahhah. found it quite amusing.

they can think what they want.

it's not really me. it WAS me though.. hehe. i wrote that last year, so figures. xD i've lost some of the depressed, excessive-eyeliner poet me. more of the excessive uv-light cynic. xDD or something along the lines of.

i don't act like a cynic, i know.

live with it. hohoho.

-cynical chibi

2004-09-29T09:33:00.000+08:00

the worlds flowers like a carpet of crimson red
as one scatter and toss through the air
sorrow and sadness are born there
from the darkness that streams underneath
ah, are hearts only meant to lie?
are people just puppets of fate

{only to embrace those we love
and protect those small and precious
today again some one shouts that out
sacrificing even their life
to smolder in the midst of time
with that instants kiss.}

in this city stained with greed
there is only wind blowing towards the sky
all that is left of trampled love
is the tear left in the palm of my hand
ah, were smiles only meant to sunder?
every one has their wounded hearts

[I want to protect those timid creatures
those who kneel in prayer
I'll even carve a cross in my chest
to believe in something unstoppable
and the irrepressible spirit
now and forever]

the clouds disperse the stars are seen
the wind stills the birds sing
the ocean shines the heavens thaw
the night ends I feel you

{only to embrace those we love
and protect those small and precious
today again some one shouts that out
sacrificing even their life
to smolder in the midst of time
with that instants kiss.}

[I want to protect those timid creatures
those who kneel in prayer
I'll even carve a cross in my chest
to believe in something unstoppable
and the irrepressible spirit
now and forever]

-Velvet Underworld,
Weiss Kreuz

2004-09-27T18:57:00.000+08:00

Painted Black - written today (edited version - didn't bring the original home -_-)

In the dead, silent night of the darkest of black
Someone's just been forced to face the facts
But it's really not easy (not easy)..

Down on me does insomnia curse
Try to calm myself, recite a bible verse
In the coldest abyss, oh an empty void
Immersed
It's really not easy (not easy)..

To face the facts
When your whole world is painted black (painted black and black...)
Such a dirty black..

Oh, dirty black
Ah, dirty black
Let the rain fall down
Let it wash away our sins and hate
Our hearts, our souls, our minds
All such a dirty black

When his whole world
And your whole world
is painted black
It really isn't easy to face the facts.

Dirty black..
Oh your soul is..
such a dirty black.

`````````````

i am SICK. -_- like super sick. gwahhh.. i feel like crap.

oh yeah bernard if you see this..

YOU CAN COME TO SINGAPORE ON OCTOBER FIRST! precisely cuz manga class is canceled. we can go out THEN =3 haven't told mother dearest.

okay. tag me in reply or message me or something.

-dirty black

2004-09-26T11:48:00.000+08:00

hee. ^_^ saturday was FUNNN.. hehe.

journalism meeting:
we discussed some ideas for new columns. here's what we've got..
-original story column (MY IDEA! =3)
-original/fanart column (had vague notions of this, but someone else said it first. hehe. heard sonia's name flying all over the place. xD)

er. actually, i can't remember anymore oO; but we came up with ideas on how to make Scoop more well-known. going to force every barbarian and shoelacer to BUYY a copy. =3 going to ask some friends in other schools for what they have in their school newspaper.

chinese oral
was kind of easy o_O the teacher kept smiling. made me wonder what i said -_-;;; bleah.

then we went to orchard =3 annette was wearing her cca skirt and p.e shirt -.-' she said she wasn't going to complain halfway, but she complained even before we left the damn school compound xD that moron. oh well.

all had fun at the manga class though =3 originally planned to watch movie after but all sold out. purdy much expected though. tis saturday, after all. next time, PHONE BOOKING.. dammnit. xDD oh well. so we all just walked around. then went home. sigh.

hm. going to see if i can bring jean and julia next week. well, next next next week. >_< no manga class for two weeks, due to some uppity moron who booked the damn conference room. bleahhh. stoopid. shall bring more friends so mage has more business. they really really need it >_< ee.

humm. maybe i'll drag sonia to go along. =3 lesse. was actually planning bring bernard next week but there ain't class then so.. err.. go figure. bleah. hm. wonder who else i can bring. HORNBERG!! w00t. hehe. annette + hornberg + me + nat = chaos. =3 maybe maithilli too. dunno about her though. she's not THAT interested in manga. ^^ but i'll try.. i'll try..

lesse. maybe angelina and rayna? angelina can have the rest of her other anime fan-friends come too =3 she got like tons.. in 1/4.. hehe.

i still love my hair, being the inane narcisisst i am.

did i spell that right?

XD

-apocalyptic schizophrenia

2004-09-24T15:11:00.000+08:00

lala.

i successfully stayed offline for an extended period of time. hallelujah. basically i spent the past few days completely on the phone ^^ tried to study while i was at it. kind of succeeded.

hm. got sick in school. fever of 38.3 but i'm tons better now =3 after eating lots of grape mentos and drinkin' the purdy pokka aloe vera juice. and then taking a shower. MY HAIR SMELLS PURDY NOW!

jonathan likes my hair =3 i like my hair more. xDD

-cynical chibi

2004-09-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

quizzes.. ^_^

Like the internet? Both Lain (from "Serial
Experiments Lain") and you seem to have
the motto that the computer can connect you to
another world and that you can become a
different person when connected.

What's Your Inner Anime Motto?
brought to you by Quizilla

wahaha.

there's also a ken one.. xDD the motto is.. 'you are only sexy if you believe you are'. therefore. I AM NOT SEXY. mwahaha. xD hmm. ken looks purdy there though. shall paste it here. eeh. cannot get the result. xD never mind.

listening to: Hard Act to Follow by Grinspoon

purdy song. LISTEN IT!

-skyldig

2004-09-22T14:25:00.000+08:00

Ahaha. Ahaha. AHAHAHAHAHA!

er. a-hem ^_^;

^-^ tessa, natasha and annette all agreed to come on saturday for the manga class thing =3 wahahaha...MORE GIRLS -_-; like there aren't enough already, but whatever.. hehe. jonathan been bugging me to bring some friends along. xD baka.

had the formal letter writing test today and i think i make one of the worst counselors in the world history (maybe the WORST)...i think my reply letter is going to make the writer of the letter worse off. like she'll go suicidal at the end or something. 'If you can't even do that, then there's nothing much you or I can do about it

xDD also had the science test today -_-;; at first i was like so confused about the clockwise moment crap and then miss tan was explaining the 'expression of the clockwise moment' shit and then suddenly i realized i knew how to do it.. and i don't even listen in class OR study on my own (only studied the introduction and levers. the moment stuff twasn't in the textbook. xD)... i am the epitome of GENIUS. mwahaha.

i reallllllly wanted to act today though.. but alex didn't come so we couldn't. i can tell she feels purdy bad about it too, so shall not pursue matter when she finally does come to school. we're going to act on friday instead, along with jean's group and others. hehe. ^_^ LOOKIN' FORWARD TO IT!

must learn to throw voice though. wahahahahaha.

-skyldig <--new pseudo. GAHAHAHA. means 'guilty' in swedish.

2004-09-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

i finished studying for my science =3 but i still have ways to go before finishing ebithing on meh pwetty list of things to do -_-;;

alex. is sick. so she can't play herlock sholmes tomorrow. that is just CRAPness. i mean, we worked so damned hard on the play. sigh. i even forgot to message sarah back.. wonder if she's still online..

yawp. she is. tellin' her about the manga class.

bleah.

nuffink much.

-apocalyptic schizophrenia

2004-09-18T18:12:00.000+08:00

Hehe. It's so fun to read Angelina's blog. Kind of reminds me of myself a few years ago.. so angsty and stuff.. but.. she's a bit more forgiving and kind than i was.. than i'll ever be. hehe.

hmm. *stomach growls* waiting for dinner. just came back from manga class not too long ago.

-_-; sigh. i shall not even MENTION them. i don't even want to repeat what's been going on o_O feel so.. weird about it. oh well. tried calling bernard this morning.. stoopid bastard didn't answer the phone. bleah. think he still sleeping or something.

eeeeee. really really hungry >_<

hm. you know i realize whenever i venture outside my house in two ponytails, tons of people gimme weird looks but when i meet the people i'm supposed to meet they say i look pretty cute or something nice or neutral.. but.. those stares.. say otherwise >_> i kinda think i look a bit girly and ahlianish.. hm. not going to wear two ponytails anymore x) hehe. unless i get those big black ribbons or something xDD or gothic lolita.. but then again i'd have that funny headband thingie .. you know the maid-like thing o_O

eh. what else.

ah yes. must get angelina to join swifty's board and get her to get a few more FMA fans to join so he can start a FMA thread and make me moderator of it. gahaha.

-apocalyptic schizophrenia

2004-09-18T09:48:00.000+08:00

KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!! *_* Full Moon wo Sagashite is such a great show! ^_____^ nyaaaaaa... and no bernard, MITSUKI DIDN'T DIE! MWAHAHA! The pretty Shinigami higher-upper woman made Meroko an angel (she doesn't look half bad with that hair and those boots, ya know =D), Takuto back into a human ^______^ waii! and Meroko helps Mitsuki and Takuto see each other again, because Takuto lost all his memories.

sigh. it's such a sweet series!

*_* must write a fanfiction about it. er. somehow. *tries to think up a plot* probably will fail BUTTTT.. i must do this! must! must!

i have a feeling full moon wo sagashite will be really really popular in future. especially if it gets licensed. it's not quite possible to pair anybody up with anybody else, especially if the OC is a girl. the Meroko/Izumi scene just says it all between the two of them, even though Meroko became an angel...BUT! THERE ABSOLUTELY CANNOT BE SOME RANDOM MARYSUE PAIRED UP WITH IZUMI! or someone will die around here =)

Takuto and Mitsuki have my full support (yeah. i know. so not me. xD. what happened to the yaoi fangirl? ah well.).. so err... will bite off anyone's head who tries to pair their own OC up with Takuto. i would sort of be fine with a male OC with Meroko since i don't think angels and shinigami can be together and all... but then again, that's what's fun about it =) Izumi and Meroko tish really sweet.

you know, i've always wondered how Jonathan would look if he took on the shape of a human xDD stoopid weird ancient ghost with no outlined tail. XDD he's purdy cute though. and so. Mitsuki in middle school =3 what a lovely thing.

Hehe. someone should write a Machida/Kumi fic =3 find them quite sweet too. Kumi's the only girl's name i remember from the whole series.. -_-;;; ehh. i like the cute 'nyu-nyu' girl too. hehe. real cute.

ga-hem. Wakaouji/Takuto, anyone? xD

Wants:
-Full Moon wo Sagashite OST
-Full Moon wo Sagashite translated manga (toriyama's scanlation's winzip files AIN'T VALID. dunno. maybe it's just mine. gah.)

teehee -_-;

oh yeah.

i'm also working on this SenKosh fic. got Koshino's little sister inside. Little sister tis seven, scary and slightly autistic. o_O somewhat. nyahaha. Koshino doesn't like the sister. Sendoh doesn't like the sister (much). I don't even know the sister's name.

oh yeah.

Chiharu.

i didn't even mention it until like the middle of the first chapter -_-;; need to edittt...

-apocalyptic schizophrenia

2004-09-14T15:26:00.000+08:00

things to do:

a) Love for Venus article
b) SMARTS columnist
c) lyrics to Eternal Snow (barbs)

T____________T they may seem little, but they're immensely hard to do! you realize that completing the play script last night took off all of my inspiration -_-;; but i will admit i did a good job on it though. XDDD hehe. really cute.

today we rehearsed the play a bit for the whole of music. hehe was reallllly funnn because teachers didn't tell us to shut up once or whatever because we DO need to make that much noise while we're rehearsing, you know. mwahahahaha.

Songs I currently adore:

Eternal Snow [route L version]
Eternal Snow [Diamond Dust Madoka remix]
Rock n' Roll Princess (The*Scanty)
I <3 U (The*Scanty)
Accidentally in Love (Counting Crows) <--just listened to it last night. quite nice =)
New Future

waii ^-^=

-shoelace

-schizophrenia

2004-09-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

I am in complete love with The*Scanty.. hehe ^_^ The songs for the Full Moon OPs are so cute. super-girly love lyrics though o_O but the tunes are really bouncy and adorable xDD

Hm. Looking for the English translation of Rock n' Roll Princess though. can't find it >_< maybe got too much english they decided to do away with the kanji xDD so nobody can translate it -_-;

updated my mp3 player's playlist. hehe. added in a lot of the best of rival players songs i just acquired from yoshikochan =D going to see if there's anything worth downloading at tsubame-gaeshi later ._. and going to check kirika.. again. -_-;; ryuuko had better have updated, dammnit. hehe. i want to know Eiji's Girl's Type.. along with Inui.. and Kaidoh.. odd men they all are x)

hm. i feel like replacing my blog layout AGAIN.. but i have no suitable pictures. the next one i make going to make a little 100x100 space for an avatar.

shit.. have to go do the script -_-;;; why ain't tessa or nat or someone online to help me?!

-cynical shoelace

2004-09-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

ohohoho.

I have just purchased Petshop of Horrors 8, Model 2 and Love for Venus 2. don't i just ROCK *_* hehehee. shall read model tomorrow, i guess -_- otherwise i have nuffink to do. @_@

hmm. psoh8 was really nice =D twas a bit short compared to the past books. and now, tokyopop has added this stoopid parental advisory: explicit content crap when there is NOTHING explicit about it, unless you count that mermaid's tits but that's just stoopid if you count that as 'explicit content'.

tokyopop, stop trying to sanitize everything. sheesh. i mean, okay, confidential confessions i can understand (-________-A), but petshop has nuffink explicit! dammnit! it's only mild! and that's err.. exaggerating!! xD

-apocalyptic schizophrenia

2004-09-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

Aah. Mozilla is kinda screwed. Doesn't really read HTML right. argh. and the font to type in this blogger area is so annoying! I want back it into Courier New. keeeeeeeeeeeeehhh..

anyway. new layout. it's kind of oldish, not much effort put into -_-;; but believe me, it's so tiring. imagine if i gave 100% to making this! my soul would flitter off first out of tiredness -_-;;

hahh.. so hungry >_<

things might appear different on Internet Explorer from Mozilla, so i'm sorry if some stuff looks a bit weird. my I.E's shit and Mozilla is shit when it comes to blogger. sigh.

-apocalyptic schizophrenia

2004-09-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

http://www1.odn.ne.jp/~ccu26730/hanagumi/illust/comic_o/1.html

GAHAHAHAHA XD go to it!

2004-08-31T15:47:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Crying Sky -Echizen Ryoma [SR Samurai]

If miracles existed, I would have died being born.

If God existed, wouldn't he have stopped my existence?

I have no use. I have no talent. I bring no one good.

All of their voices are so distant.

Does anyone want to kill me? Do you want me to disappear from your life? Do you want to break my spirit? Then go ahead.

I won't hold it against you.

I know I'm a bad person.

I don't deserve to live at all.

Good night.

2004-08-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

*****Stuff bout moi*****
1. Starting Time: 20:27 pm
2. Name: Esther
3. Best Friend(s): Bernard, Derrek, Albert, Annette.
4. Sexiest Friend: ~~Annette~~ [GAHAHAHA] ehh. i don't think any of my friends are sexy.
5. Funniest Friend: Derrek. hehe.
6. Smartest Friend: Me. xD nahh. Natasha, i guess. *evil eyes*
7. best rival and friend: gwaa. Natasha. xDD
8. Shyest Friend: dohhh... SIYI. Bwahahaha. ^^ We all know you still adore Yu Jin! Now out with it!
9. Most boring friend: Gehh. I don't befriend boring people, ya moron.
10. Who Do u Get Advice From?: Me.
11. Height: 155 cm. Ah, midgety little retarded chibi, I am.
12. DOB: 10 september 1991.
13. Righty / Lefty: right. well i could also use my left.. but.. look at the world within five minutes of that XD
14. Eye color: brownnn~ dark. really dark. *squint*
15. Shoe Size: 4. Or 3. 3 1/2 i think o.O i dunno. Meh feet are tiny -_-
16. Shoe Brand: ah...CONVERSE! followed by Nike =D
17. Do u Crack any Body Parts: o.O my head. XDD
19. Siblings: none -_-; i wish i had an oniisan, ne.. argh.
20. Email Add: *points to navigation bar* says there, ya moron.
21. Boy Friend: hmm. non-anime?
22. Crush: err. non-anime or anime? Because if the latter, I'll never stop..
23. Liked a Teacher: -_- nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
24. Killed Someone: =D YESH!
25. Ever laughed so hard you've peed in your pants: Alex has o.O
26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: no. I hate THREE tubs of it in a go >D
27. Ran Into a Glass Door: XDD I'm stupid enough to do that and I know that by experience. Go figure.
29. Gone Skinny Dipping: whassat mean? XD *forgot*
30. Gotten hit/nearly hit by a car: yesh. xD
31. Ran into a parked car: o.O yeah.

*****Girls Fill Out About Guys*****
35. Boxers or Briefs: -_-;;... COMMANDO. XD *believes Haru to be going comando =D*
36. Tall or Short: Exactly 3/4 a head taller than me would be a lovingly pretty height ^_^
37. Does size matter: OF COURSE?! xDD and yes, I mean the size of THAT.
8. Six-pak or Muscular arm: I prefer a Muscular arm to a six-pack, but I also prefer a six-pack to a pot belly and the likes. XD
39. Body or Personality: Personality =D I'll fix his body for him later WHETHER THE FREAKIN' LIKES IT OR NOT! TOUGH!
40. Ear Pierced or Not : definitely =D Think Koshiba from Penguin Brothers! Yeah!!
41. Sporty or Outdoorsy: None -_-
42. Good Guy or Bad Guy : Think Nishizaki [PenBro], Haru [Furuba], Tennoji [BoysnGirl]
43. Light Hair/ Dark Hair: Doesn'tmatter as long as it's long, sexy-lookin' and prettier than mine ^^ and he hasta look good in it too.

*****Which One is Better*****
59. Coke or pepsi: Coke. even though it's got phosphoric acid in it.
60. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: KFC.
63. eastside or westside: dehh.
64.vanilla or chocolate: chocolate for flavorings, vanilla for 'references'. XD
65. Cake or Cookies: cookies.
66. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: white. white. white.
67. Sunset or Sunrise: sunrise, cuz it means i get to sleep. nah, maybe sunset. hehe.
68. Day or Night: night.
69.Lights on or off: On ^_^ SEE HIM SUFFER WITH THE LIQUID WAX!! *sizzle*
70. Summer or Winter: Winter. Summer is too hot *dies of heat* o.O

*****Your favorite*****
71. Food: Japanese, Indonesian, CONFECTIONARYYYY~~
73. Holiday: Eeh. Teh bottom of teh sea or to teh moon. XD
74. radio station: i don't listen to radios, moron.
75. Place: wherever there is fast internet connection and manga >D

***** In The Future*****
76. Will you believe in God: i already do.
77. What you want to be when you grow up: rock star, novelist, mangaka.

*****Random Questions*****
78. Define Love: something I do not have in my heart to give and hate to be given.
79. Where Were You Born: Vancouver, Canada. I AM ALL-ASIAN HERITAGE though, so FEAR ME. xD
80. Favorite Place To Be Kissed: In HIS room. xD or eh. Under a Sakura tree at one of em pretty festivals xD sweet things! sweet things!
81. Favourite day(s) of the week: noneeeeee..
82. Bedtime: whenever i feel sleepy. XD
83.Satan or God or atheist: God. ^^ followed by Lucifer. not Satan. LUCIFER.

*****more questions:*****
84.do u love someone rite now: see question 78.
85.do u care about someone: no. I am an apathetic self-centered cynic, so live with it -_-
86.do u think of someone everyday: of course. myself.
87.do u dream about someone in a special way: hm. >D depends on what you mean by special.
88.finishing time: THAT WAS IT?! .. 8:44

2004-08-30T20:20:00.000+08:00

hm.. this quiz is screwed:

Jaded: The world has lost some of its flavor for
whatever reason, and you dont really care much
for even some of the more fantastical things in
life. Its all a dull routine for you, with
nothing to really break up the monotony.
You have above average/7-8 banality.

How Banal Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

the quizmaker's idea of fucking 'not-banal': unicorns, FAE-ries, wings, sparkly shit and irises which take up the entire eyeball and minute little idiots who flutter around annoying you.

the quiz is TOO specific. that is the CONVENTIONAL idea of 'creativity' and 'uniqueness' and 'magic'.

my idea:
see kerrie's quiz result for the 'What are you?' quiz thing. I can't seem to be able to take it though. I dunno.

that is creative. that is fresh. ^_^ Morbid poetry, broken dolls, sullied purity, all that pretty, macabre things. ah. but of course. who could care less about stupid little fluttering things which have magical powers inproportionate to their size? *remembers a Bondage Fairy fanfiction she read once out of boredom* oh, don't remind me. -_-;

fairies are so happy. Even 'Dark Faeries' are so .. happy. so passe. so CLICHEEEEEE.

*sploofs back into her little corner*

-cynical chibi. o.O

2004-08-28T14:35:00.000+08:00

i'm sick, i'm grumpy, i'm in no mood to argue/strain my voice. i think my self-preservation instincts have died off too. i swear, lucifer could come storming in threatening me with some fire sabre thing and i'd just sit there and let him kill me with it. -.-

*luffs Envy* *luffs Scar* *luffs Ed's chibiness*

-hagane no chibi.

harharhar.

2004-08-27T14:03:00.000+08:00

You're in the Geek box.

What box do you get put in?
brought to you by Quizilla

fear me.

mwahaha.

these are all stereotypes though. blearh.

hm. geek. fear the geeks, for we are your future leaders and we'll MAKE YOU BURN IN HELL WHEN WE'RE PRESIDENT OF THE WORLD AND THE MILKY WAY!!

er. yeah.

*hacks up another green ball XD*

-schizophrenic morbidity

7 GB too much for recycle bin?! -_-;;

2004-08-27T13:53:00.000+08:00

i am sick. arghh.

as in literally sick, that is. *cough hack wheeze cough cough HACK* o.O *looks at hairball of phlegm* xD

hm. took the cake quiz thing.

Fun-loving, sassy, humorous. Not very grounded in life, very indecisive and lack motivation. Everyone enjoys being around you, but you are a practical joker. Others should be cautious in annoying you, however, you are a friend for life. The Cakes Quiz

nyahaha. sassy.

i have four medicines to take. i detest the lozenges.. tastes like those green strips of thingies they have.. o.O you know the one to make your breath nice.. but.. it numbs my bleeding tongue *wiggles tongue*. argh.

*HACK*

o_O;

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-25T18:35:00.000+08:00

-_- just now scared the shit out of me.

i was watching ranma.. then came back to comp.. then the ep finished.. but there's supposed to be two eps in a row showing.. so i heard people cheering 'Seishun Gakuen! Seishun Gakuen!' and i'm like '!?!?!? PRINCE OF TENNIS!?!?!? HOW COME NOBODY TOLD ME?!?!!!?!?!' and then went out and it turns it was the school in bloody ranma 1/2.. -_- cuz i thought i heard Season 1 Eiji's voice too .. and Shiba's voice.. -_-;;

*thwaps tv*

i need to have my hearing checked. blah.

-apocalyptic schizophrenic
schizophrenic alchemist XDDD
really really bad.. alchemist.

2004-08-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

..........

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

*primitive fangirl howl* MEHHHH GOOOOODDESSS~~~~~~~~~~~~! ^_________________^

the jap exchange students were here today. there were. EIGHT GUYS.

six out of eight were pretty good looking.

a particular THREE were FUCKING HOT.

a) Gou (THEIR left. extreme left during the dance)
b) Yuki (Yuki! Yuki! cute little Yuki ^^)
c) that skinny lanky guy right at the end (OUR left.). superbly adorable and superbly skinny ^^ he's not tanned too!

but. Gou. is. freakin'. hot ^^ annette was like 'OMGGGGGG' at him -_-; and i'm like 'yeah.. okay.. he's pretty okay..' and then i got hooked on him too ^^; dahaha. sonia going to get me a picture of him. XD annette, you hear this: Gou is actually a really shy guy ^______^ gahahahaha.

Gou = really shy = uke = needs a seme = i will find his seme = i will pair em up = happy me.

*goes off to find other people to fangirl to*

i shall attempt to write a tenipuri exchange student thing now. now that i know boys are allowed in girls school.

btw there was this sec 3 girl who actually hosted 2 guys. bloody despo...

-apocalyptic schizophrenia.

2004-08-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

Axel Force - Bring Me to Life (the ORIGINAL Bring Me to Life)
-trance
vs.
Evanescence - Bring Me to Life
-dark

Axel Force wins.

download the song. mwahaa.

2004-08-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

Vanilla (Gackt) is such a dirty song xD :: lyrics + translation (gotten off from someone else's site. not mehhnn..)

You're an honest moralist You trace me with your pretty finger
I'm a pure terrorist Your thoughts are rising like a revolution

A specialist bound by romance You used your long fingernails on me
An egoist who wants to confirm love I want to struggle on until I'm inside of you

You keep yourself at a distance
ah Before I lose myself

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is More Deeper
As those almost maddening lips I've gotten used to melt together
I am...Your...Vanilla

(Kami-sama...) [1]

"...you're too affected" You're cool like plastic
With hot looks like an ecologist, those burning kisses are irritating

Your distorting face is
ah Please let me stay myself

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is More Faster
The almost painful wet lips are there are no more words
You and I are not Burning love

ah If we welcome how many mornings ah Will the nights probably stop
ah Scattered in the sky ah White flowers surround us

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is "I've seen a tail"
It's almost embarrassing I've fallen for you
A crew sees cring knees,
I wanna need. Not betray!!

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is More You are
As those almost maddening hips I've gotten used to melt together
You are...My...keeper

[1] he sighs/moans/gasps this. mwahaha.

ah. ^_^ more prettiness for my overworked imagination.

go, Vanilla.

-apocalyptic vanilla-influenced schizophrenia.
live with it.

2004-08-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

hm. let's see.

i have 9 words so far on my fudo-centric fic.

erk.

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

-apocalyptoc schizophrenia

2004-08-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm. been very attached to my gameboy lately =D i'm at the mossdeep bit now.. have to train -_- the gym leader pokemon like level 42 and my highest leveled pokemon is.. well 33. o.o and that type disadvantage -_-;;; i only have my pelipper and lombre to fight solrock and lunatone. dahhh. -_-; do not like this. must .. find.. cheat.. *hops off to gamefaqs*. dehehehehe.

had history test today. scribbled nonsensical babble for all the questions (got nonsenicaller [i coined the word. daha.] with every bleddy question -_-;; doo..). i was tryin' to find my science notes yesterday.. and then ended up digging my whole shelf up like some mine site or something.. hehe.. and found all my old drawings.. i kept the ones which i liked and the ones which i probably could make something good outta..

wait. SHIT. -_- natootz brought back my better drawings. dohhhh.. -_-;;;; suppose i shall have to bring them the next lesson xD dammnit. was hopin' to shove the ones with proper female figures (don't think there are any..) into that guy's face and go 'THIS is how you draw a female figure. Now bow down, kiss my feet and worship me.' in this Almighty!fangirl tone xD with the waves and fire and smiling Mt. Fuji and all. gahahaha.

hm.

my current mantra: i will talk to the Kamio guy and i WILL convince his friend to become Shinji.

xD sheesh. hm. i'm stressed out over tomorrow.. -_- because i don't know where my materials all gone.. must go look for it later. o.O

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-18T15:45:00.001+08:00

hm. fucking thing won't republish.

so shall retype the whole fucking entry again.

not that it's long.

i'm grumpy.

hungry.

and have no appetite.

and my fucking maid is being a fucking moron, as usual.

not to mention i have no vocabulary all of a sudden (see the excess of 'fucking').

this is so fucking fucked-up.

i don't have anybody to fucking talk to anyway. b's got a girlfriend, ain't gonna disturb HIM. sarah's pretty much fucked-up and scared of me (sides, it's 9am there. fucking screwed if i call her.). nadiah and i are pretty much not talking (perfectly happy with that, by the way. she is an utterly fucking boring person and i refuse to accept that. so therefore i will not be her fucking ATM MACHINE.)

b has no time for me. blah. hm. never mind. at least i've gotten what makes me the ultimate person who i've always wanted to be. no friends. no real friends anyway. no best friends.

hm. yeah. i hope i stay like that and then i'll just wander and wade around in my own, fucking cynicism and abnormally large puddle of mirky, bloody mud until i die in there because its too fucking optimistic a pretty picture for my taste.

blahdy blahdy blah.

by the way.

miss ying is an even more fucked-up person than i imagined her to be. hm. she's getting more and more fucked each day i see her fucking face.

hm. list of fucked-up people.

1 ying
2 nadiah
3 all of those fucked-up people i got to know via nadiah. they're so screwed they're beyond screwed.
4 mother dearest
5 maid
6 sarah
7 some odd dude by the pseudo of munchie. fuckin' poseur.
8 bernard

well. basically everybody who hates me. (except for 7, we don't really know each other) as well. they're all screwed. just because they hate me. not that they SHOULDN'T hate me.. but since they don't like me, might as well say they're screwed.

just so you know i'm not a particularly egocentric person, even if my err.. reality persona says otherwise *gives her reality persona a Look*

la di da di da.

i've decided to go on another diet.

ain't gonna eat.

i weigh too much.

blahdy blahdy blah.

may i reign supreme.

-apocalyptic schizophrenia
yep. i've gotta new pseudonym. fuck you and fuck you and fuck you too.

2004-08-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

hm. i am extremely grumpy.

hungry too.

but. whatever. i chucked my lunch away. grumpy. no appetite. but still hungry.

how fucking ironic.

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

flying flying let's fly
to wherever beyond the sky
wherever high
gravity we defy
we all say goodbye
time to find some boys who cry
can't deny
we're fangirls ^-^!!!
that ain't a lie..

i made this up myself =D

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

hm. got this off the stupid girl's blog.

1] What is your pen name?
Cynical Shoelace.

2] How did you get the name?
inspired by The Black Shoelaces and my own cynicism. that + that = this. heh.

3] Do you use PC or Mac?
PC.

4] What software you use most often?
Firefox. Realplayer. Blahdy blahdy blah.

5] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
Mouse. i want a tablet.

6] The color you use most often is?
Monochrome. Red. shades of purple. tee~

7] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?
The head. harhar. and body err.. proportions. important factor.

8] How long does it take you to draw a picture?
er. matchstick people less than a minute.. hehe.

9] Do you keep your rough drafts?
yeah.

10] What kind of font do you use most often?
Verdana, Square772 BT, Calligraphy421 BT, courier new

11] What's the dpi when you scan?
300.

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?
not really. just sit there in silence and draw. sometimes i get distracted and sleep. eh.

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?
depends.

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
normal?

16] How long does it take to ink something?
i'm learning. i'm learning. so shut up.

17] Do you have a doujinshi or original manga?
duh. all over.

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?
i like doujinshi >) for obvious reasons.

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?
yeah.

20] Did it get published?
duh.

21] Who are your favorite artists?
lots. Bernini! dahah. Da Vinci. CLAMP. blahdy blah. Kaori Yuki~!

22] What's your favourite Anime/Manga?
Weiss Kreuz, Gravitation, Prince of Tennis, Angel Sanctuary, Model, Kill Me Kiss Me, YnM, Weiss Side B, Chobits, blahdy blah.. lots. Lain~

23] Favourite Character?
not possible to count them all, but K and Eiji always come to mind first.

24] Any artists that you'd like to draw like?
CLAMP's Chobits and Clover style, all those Korean mangakas (Model, Kiss Me Kill Me, Les Bijoux blahdy blah).. yeah.

25] Do you buy books a lot?
yeah.

26] Did you ever buy a book to inspire you to draw?
what do you THINK made me what i am?

27] Any video games you enjoy?
Shenmue. DDR. RPG goodies. Chaos Legion. PopnMusic8..blah.

28] Any favourite characters from video games?
hm. no.

29] Do you have a favourite writer?
Greg Iles. Dan Brown. Amy Tan. Me.

30] Any books you really enjoy?
Angels & Demons, The Footprints of Good, The Bonesetter's Daughter, { catalyst, The Devil Wears Prada.. see 'literary' in the sidebar. harhar.

31] Do you write fanfics?
guess so.

32] Any music that you often listen to while drawing?
whatever's convinient and tolerable.

33] Any recommended songs?
lots.

34] Any websites that you totally admire?
yeah. lots and lots and lots. blah.

35] Do you have any sites you want to go everyday?
yeah.

36] What is your dream site like?
...you really want to know? ^_^ teehee. it has to have 100% free explicit yaoi access, created and maintained by people like Crow (bad-luck.net), etc. no broken links, easy navigation, no lies. daha.

37] Do you like your own art?
some.

38] What do you enjoy watching on TV?
nothing. Singapore Idol (Then laugh at them), some subbed anime.

<39] Favourite celebrity?
Gackt, to name one.

40] Favourite color?
Black.

41] Favourite food?
candy. chocolate. whatever's sweet.

42] Favourite drink
those 60% alcohol vodka.. daha. along with soft drinks which contain phosphoric acid *coughcokecough*.. hehe. 100+.. yeah.

43] Any places you like to shop at?
wherever sells manga. wherever sells cool retro accessories. phuturelondon, slutshops, whorehouses. daha. i'm so crude.

44] Can you cook?
i think so.

45] Any programs you use often for email? Any electronic pets?
hotmail. shohokumail. blahdy blah. electronic pets? hell with em. the BchanPtime thing, i guess.

46] Are you a computer expert?
guess so. compared to a lot of people my age.

47] Want to become a professional artist?
as a sidestep.

48] Any other jobs you're interested in, besides an illustrator?
writer. media stuff. journalism. rock star.

49] Any other specialities besides drawing?
being stupid count?

50] Do you like to watch movies?
guess so.

51] What's your favourite movies?
can't name any.

52] Have you ever entered art contests and got 1st place?
no. mainly because i don't enter.. heh.

53] When did you start drawing seriously?
a year ago.

54] Anything that you often use as a reference when you draw?
CLAMP artbook, manga.

55] Have you met any of your fans online?
i have fans?

56] You have a lot of pen pals?
no. e-pals more like.

57] You have a lot of friends that draw?
not really. a few.

58] What time do you usually go online?
if i'm awake and mother's not home. hehe.

59] Do you like to go to chat rooms?
yep.

60] Do you have your own computer?
yeah. guess you can call it that.

61] What would you say to the person you admire?
You're beautifully gay. Now can I pair you up with that other beautifully gay person over there? *big pretty grin*

62] Do you think of things when you draw?
just random things nobody cares about.

63] Have you drawn bad because you think too much?
haha. yeah.

64] Do you have any friends who are professionals?
i think i can call her my friend. blah.

65] Where do you often hang out?
mom's room. that's where the comp is.

66] Do you have any artists that you don't like too much?
eh.

67] Situations in which you really don't like being online?
i.e downing. but no fear. firefox is here!

68] Situations in which you hate when it comes to having websites?
er. updating?

69] Something that makes you really glad that the internet exists?
everything except the *points below*

70] What about things that make you NOT glad that the internet exists?
popups. slowness. bandwidth. space.

71]What's the first picture you've ever shown to the public online?
dunno.

72] Do you still have that?
dunno?

73] Has your drawing style changed a lot?
yep. duh.

74] How does it usually change?
well i was really crap at first and then i drew this really nice one and then i started to draw a lot better there onwards. dahah.

75] Have you experienced artists block before?
duh.

76] How did you escape from it?
just wait for it to get bored and leave.

77] What happens when you have artists block?
i die. hehe.

78] Any artists that have influenced you a lot?
er. not really.

79] What made you start drawing?
manga. anime. me.

80] What made you want to get a website?
er. this is a blog. not a website.

81] Where did your site name come from?
Shining Collection lyric.

82] What do you think about net manners?
absolutely unnecessary.

83] Have you ever been spammed?
yep.

84] Ever thought about quitting your webpage?
eh.

85] If so, why?
blah.

86] About how much KB is each picture?
go to hell!!

87] When creating your site, do you use a program or pure html?
both.

88] Do you have good eyesite?
you mean eyesight? or eyecandiful-site?

89] If you can get any person's autograph, who's would you get?
Koyasu Takehito. Go Weiss.

90] What would you say to that artist when he/she autographs for you?
You rock! yeah!! *glomp*

91] Do you have fans of your art?
doubted, but hoping.

92] Do you like to draw on oekaki?
nah. never tried.

93] Are you good at art in school?
well. my friend's idea of 'not bad' and 'pretty good' earns me F in art in school. yeah.

94] Did you take art lessons other than from school?
yeah.

95] Have you drawn a manga?
tried. three pages. then it DIED. HAHA.

96] What's your favourite phrase/quote?
Wit is educated insolence.

97] Do you think your personality is different externally and internally?
yep.

98] What's your goal now?
pass secondary one and get into secondary two EXPRESS stream.

99] What do you have to say to yourself?
i suck.

100] Lastly, what do you have to say to everyone?
die.

2004-08-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

la~ di~ da~

updating again. i still haven't received my manga. going to pester that little piece of dross until i get it! *pin pon pan~!*

until then..

If I were a stone, I would be : Obsidian. Transparent and of the lesser-known.
If I were a tree, I would be : Jelutong (or whatever o.o ain't that a typa wood though). Easily broken but hurts like hell when you hit someone with it. hm. yeah.
If I were a bird, I would be : Hummingbird. Agile and noisy. XD daha. maybe a crow. yeah~
If I were a machine, I would be: Computer.
If I were a tool, I would be : Motherboard. w00t.
If I were a flower/plant, I would be : a dead freesia. always dead. always.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: rainy.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be : the White Tiger, plus wings X)
If I were a musical instrument, I would be : Electric keyboard/guitar.. the microphone? XD dahaha. THE AMPS!! MWAHAHA.
If I were an animal, I would be a : Heron. The sign of a woman's death.

If I were a color, I would be : black. or red. or gray. or purple. depends.
If I were an emotion, I would be : cynicism.
If I were a vegetable, I would be : in coma? xD
If I were a sound, I would be : sadistic laughter.
If I were an element, I would be : Death.
If I were a car, I would be : Mercedes. Honda. Blah.
If I were a movie, I would be : Underworld.
If I were a food, I would be : candy.
If I were a place, I would be : a cemetary. or a morgue.
If I were a material, I would be : satin.
If I were a taste, I would be : sweet.
If I were a scent, I would be : decomposition.
If I were a religion, I would be : Christianity.
If I were a word, I would be : obsession. or addiction.
If I were an object, I would be : the internet.
If I were a body part I would be : the heart or the mind.
If I were a facial expression I would be : eyes like an empty shell, absorbing rather than reflecting light. no emotion.
If I were a subject in school I would be : Recess.
If I were a cartoon character I would be : Shindou Shuichi (Gravitation), Nakano Hiroshi (Gravitation).. Muraki from YnM. Maybe Nagi.
If I were a number I would be : 0
If I were a month I would be : October
If I were a day of the week Iâ€™d be : Saturday
If I were a time of day Iâ€™d be : 4:15 am.
If I were a planet I would be: Pluto.
If I were a direction I would be : East or West.
If I were a piece of furniture Iâ€™d be a: Shushu? haha.. no. maybe a closed and locked door.
If I were a sin I would be : cynicism.
If I were a song I would be : My Happy Ending -Avril Lavigne- or Church of Madness -Inkubus Sukkubus-.. or.. U.G.L.Y -Daphne&Celeste-.. or something. Vanilla -Gackt-. yeah.
If I were a weed I would be : eh. i dunno. those long funny things.
If I were a horse I would be : Eclipse.
If I were a Disney movie I would be : Freaky Friday? is that Disney? don't remember..
If I were a Disney character I would be : eh. Scar. from Lion King. hee.
If I were a type of medicine I would be: drugs.
If I were a type of gas I would be : toxic.
If I were a type of doctor I would be a : psychiatrist. or neurosurgeon.

blahdy blahdy blah.

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

doh.

daha.

DAHAHAHAHAHAH.

poojou just sent me this ayumi impersonation. impersonator a member of morning musume.. hahaha so funny xD. if anybody wants it, ask me by msn xD. dahaha.. tickles me.. *is tickled*.

sonia adores rejecting skins. bah. hell with her.

hm. have to change my layout soon. deeeeeeh.

now what was the point of this entry again. oh yeah. =D i forgot xD

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

just read kerrie's blog, found this~~ its so true -_- the (R) in frustrated added by me.. hehe she forgot that x)

don't know what's the whole deal with the plagarism thing. do you know how hard it is to come up with some words of your own? these words are mine. so don't try to make it yours. they say imitation is the best form of flattery. but they can't be even more wrong. it makes the person who was actually smart enough come up with such interesting things to read F(R)USTRATED. if you think you're so smart, go rack your brains (if you have one) to come up with an interesting post or an even better one. no need to resort to such despicable means. it's just nauseating. the whole right click thing does not exist to help you to copy stuff, especially whole-sale. that's just horrid. be more honest with others and yourself. no need trying to bluff your way through to popularity. indeed, actually it does get you popular. but people would be disgusted to be associated to you. so in fact, in doesn't benefit you at all except trying to falsely make yourself sound 'cool'. it's just not gonna work. being unoriginal ain't gonna get you more friends anyway. so why can't you just leave others alone and spend the rest of the time which you spent copying to think of something intelligent? i'll be waiting okay?

yours till my blog disappears,
`_____kerrie

*looks pointedly at all the people who have plagarized me. my 'Cynical'.*

but you know, if they plagarize you and they just don't get the point that you want them to go be original, attempt to console yourself with the fact that no matter how alike whatever they plagarized from you, its still inferior to what you made.

and then fail immensely to console self.

haha.

hm. i do admit to using 'somit' sometimes though. eh. that's kerrie's originally. cannot help it lah...she use it so much on me a little like conditioned response. i catch myself in time most of the time. hehe. ^_^; the other times i lazy to backspace..

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

good.

good.

GODDESSSSS.

know what?

went for the manga class today. okay so that not main point.

there were two guys seven girls (including me). out of the two guys, one of them resembled kamio akira from prince of tennis. yep. you know. rhythm boy. Rizumu ni naruze!!!kamio

so shocking lor.

wanted to go talk to him ('are you 'in t3h rhythm?' XD) but he was sitting at the other end of the table. so lazy. -_-;;; hahaha yeah shut up lah..

next week's lesson goal: talk to him. convince his buddy to go Shinji and make sure clone!Kamio makes tobeclone!Shinji go clone!Shinji.

mwahahahahaha.

i saw fenrir too ^_^ wehehe. i also got a free copy of mage.

think i was bit too cynicalish. dehehe. i didn't say much.. but everytime i did everyone laughs -_-;; goes to show. wit doesn't take a lot of talking. i rule. the sensei was like.. supposed to be very professional and famous. Katsu-sensei.. don't know his first name though (i'm assuming Katsu is his last name =D) . he's been in manga industry for over 20 years.. hmm... wonder if he got any of his works published.. shall go see.

-_- i was also the youngest there.. as usual. the rest are sec 3 and above -_-;; how scary. clone!Kamio was poly i think. three girls in sec school. and the two lower-editors of MAGE, Pan and Evon (pan =D i revere her)..and this other woman. yeah. woman.

hmmm.

yeah.

so i'm going to talk to clone!Kamio.

going to email fenrir about today too. whee~

Model and 'Lies' were published in this issue. ccs and whatnot next issue. whoopsies.. guess i mistook -_-;; let's see if i can finish chobits also.. haha. nah.

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-13T19:24:00.000+08:00

a shoelaceric problem: (Define and solve)

if the intensity of my doofusity is *fifteen* doofucks
and
the number of negative braincells swimming around sharon's head is *seventeen+x*
and
the intensity of sharon's doofusity is *negative-fiftyfive* doofucks..

a) what is the number of negative braincells swimming around in my head if 'x' = 'infinity'?
b) what is the total intensity of our doofusity? (take doofucks + five x fifteen doofucks / the latter's doofucks

answers:
a) impossible to solve
b) impossible to solve

so the bottom line is:
unit of doofusity: doofucks
SI unit: df
of: doofusity

2004-08-13T19:09:00.000+08:00

hm. i found out sharon's email via forward karanina sent me. whee. to all who wants it (this is as in sharon jebanesan? you know that super bimbo from p5 who had a supershort skirt for her uniform and claimed to have eczema? yeah. her.)

------> ima_kit_e@hotmail.com

add her to MSN.

here is a chat log between me and her. randumb punk is me, the other one is all hers (by the way she does not rock the world =) just so everybody knows and just so i can spite her by saying that.)

my current comments are in bold. you all know that.

.--------------------------------------------------------------------.
[18:46:44] i LyKe ToTal: hey esther?
[18:47:14] i LyKe ToTal: r u there?
[18:47:21] i LyKe ToTal:
heloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooo?
[18:47:37] ++ randumb p: ...
[18:47:38] ++ randumb p: uh. hey.
[18:47:49] i LyKe ToTal: do u member me? REMEMBER, you mean
[18:47:50] ++ randumb p: what's with the perkiness? heh. more like 'what's with the bimbotic attitude, huh?!' but i gave her a chance. she might actually have a semblance of what we recognize today as 'intelligence' ^_^
[18:47:55] ++ randumb p: yeah. well. of course.
[18:47:58] ++ randumb p: why d'ya think i added you.
[18:48:09] i LyKe ToTal: soz u wernt amswreing for a long time apparently not..
[18:48:14] ++ randumb p: ehh.
[18:48:17] ++ randumb p: you know.
[18:48:18] ++ randumb p: i have a life.
[18:48:24] ++ randumb p: which consists of things other than you.
[18:48:27] i LyKe ToTal: do u know who i am? just because i'm being mean to you doesn't mean i don't know who the screw you are!
[18:48:29] ++ randumb p: yeahh!!
[18:48:34] ++ randumb p: of course~~
[18:48:35] ++ randumb p: sharon.
[18:48:36] ++ randumb p: duh.
[18:48:39] ++ randumb p: *deadpan( heh. xD
[18:49:00] i LyKe ToTal: well geez could u be a bit morre happier to c
me? blahdy blahdy blah did someone type something?
[18:49:06] i LyKe ToTal: i am?????????????????????
[18:49:18] ++ randumb p: you are what?
[18:49:26] ++ randumb p: ehh. not really. =)
[18:49:40] ++ randumb p: considering your current prose.. and my
current personality.. not really possible to be.. HAPPY.
[18:49:53] ++ randumb p: i'm your resident cynic now.
[18:50:05] i LyKe ToTal: wat does tat mena? *really cannot believe she didn't understand that.*
[18:50:11] ++ randumb p: ...
[18:50:15] ++ randumb p: oh. lordess.
[18:50:21] ++ randumb p: so it was true..
[18:50:50] i LyKe ToTal:
.........................................................
[18:51:27] ++ randumb p: the average intelligence and expanse
vocabulary of a sec 3 singaporean male equates to someone
my age or so from any of the following (mind you as in
lived here for their preteen-teenage years. just so you
know it doesn't include me): america, australia, etc.
[18:51:27] i LyKe ToTal:
.............................................. *bleep* -_-;;
[18:51:31] ++ randumb p: eh. what.
[18:51:34] ++ randumb p: i type long. live with it.
[18:52:09] i LyKe ToTal: geez u have expectations that ain't expectations, that is the average level of intelligence, in case nobody's noticed?!!?
[18:52:10] ++ randumb p: mai's addin' you
[18:52:13] ++ randumb p: eh. not really.
[18:52:22] ++ randumb p: everyone else i know in class pretty much
understands what i say.
[18:52:27] ++ randumb p: so can't really say they're.. 'expectations'
[18:52:41] i LyKe ToTal: well u should see me here yeah well u should lyke maybe stop trying to make a FUTILE attempt to make me jealous. ain't working~! hail me.
[18:53:11] ++ randumb p: yeahh!! like what??
[18:53:16] ++ randumb p: all dressed up and 'pretty' in pink?
[18:54:39] ++ randumb p: hangin' out with the so-called 'cool and
pretty' people (who, by the way, don't have much resembling
a functioning brain in between their ears), being happy and
rich and bimbotic and popular with such a 'huuuunky'
boyfriend (blond hair, blue eyes, six pack, older,
sportsedly (i coined that word)-single-minded, male bimbo
on steroids shit) and whatever else you'd like to try and
tell me?
[18:55:30] i LyKe ToTal: nope wat u sed was all wrong blah.blah.blah. to cynics, intelligent people and anybody with some sense in them can see you're a bimbo.
[18:56:03] * ++ randumb punk _________ dross ++ [cshoelace ==
chocolate] has changed his/her name to ++ randumb punk
_________ dross ++ [resident cynic]
++annoyinggossipygirlwithgoodmusictaste++
[18:56:07] ++ randumb p: hm.
[18:56:08] ++ randumb p: well.
[18:56:10] ++ randumb p: the complete opposite then?
[18:56:30] i LyKe ToTal: i do have a boyfirned but he is brown skin
yke me an dhe is only 13 and my parents aprove o fhim and
has bl;ack hair and brown eyes
[18:56:36] ++ randumb p: ....
[18:56:38] ++ randumb p: what's wrong with your typing?!!?
[18:56:53] i LyKe ToTal: well i type to fast can see that. that isn' the problem.
[18:56:56] ++ randumb p: what's wrong with your basic grammar.
[18:56:58] ++ randumb p: your basic spellin'
[18:57:08] ++ randumb p: your bimbotalk!shorthand i rock.
[18:57:09] ++ randumb p: and blah.
[18:57:09] i LyKe ToTal: it is calle
TYPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a lot of typos..
[18:57:11] ++ randumb p: err.
[18:57:14] ++ randumb p: there ya go
[18:57:16] ++ randumb p: =)
[18:57:18] ++ randumb p: it's 'typos'
[18:57:22] ++ randumb p: =) multiple typo = typos
[18:58:14] i LyKe ToTal: u know if i didnt know beeter i'df say u were
jealous someone mind informing me of what i'm jealous of? because i'm pretty ignorant of the fact that i'm actually jealous of anything.
[18:58:17] * ++ randumb punk _________ dross ++ [resident cynic]
++annoyinggossipygirlwithgoodmusictaste++ has changed
his/her name to ++ randumb punk _________ dross ++
[resident cynic] __ nadiah, message me soon as you see
ths.
[18:58:21] ++ randumb p: hm. nah.
[18:58:25] ++ randumb p: you haven't even told me anything.
[18:58:30] ++ randumb p: what IS there to be jealous of?
[18:59:00] ++ randumb p: and people 14 and below who date are usually
just.. desperate. with the exception of vanessa.. although
her choice wasn't exactly GOOD.. stoopid ACS kid.
[18:59:23] * i LyKe ToTalY RoCk Dis WoRlD!( WeL @LeAsT MiNe) is now
Offline

hee. she still ain't online yet.

you know what?

we all have to fear bimbos.

they're the scariest people in the world. their stupidity can infect if you let your guard down. not to mention their lack of spelling skills.

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

hm. had a good dream last night~~ ^____^ K~~!!

<--adores him a lot more now xD

it was err.. kinda scary though o.O Shigure was my dad! -_-;;; my mother doesn't go for that typa guys methinks. hehe x) i think i been reading the scene in furuba where shigure's in his western suit and yelling at kyou to get his stoopid arse back here and eat or whatever.. X)

yeahh.. and then K was like.. supposedly my bodyguard (think its due to reading Princess in Pink -_-;; ..lars..MARSBARS! o.O).

yep. okay.

so that was the first/second half of my dream (whichever..). and the other half was.. JUST PLAIN SCARY!!! o_O was supposedly at smps.. basketball court.. cept the school was bloody minute.. yeah. like his cement warehouse or somit. yep.

so then suddenly these whole group of kids (my age, mind you) in red came in, followed by kids in green.. scary.. and those kids are all supposed to be my cousins -_-;; just scary because i don't recognize anyone. and then i saw Yuuta. not as in Fuji Yuuta (yeahh... he rocks!! go Yuuta!!). as in t3h real one. scaryyy!! and i was like 'heck you ain't meh cousin!? >_> you better not be anyway.' -_- and everyone was like.. ignoring me..

so i ran away x) to the back of the school thing or whatever.

er. yeah. then suddenly all those people in red suddenly wore the school uniform instead.. the dotties x) yeah.. so i was like sitting in the corner munching on food trying to be ignored.. and then there was this super-fat girl (who resembles a more horrendous version of gisele..) sitting a seat or two away from me.

yeah.. i didn't even know her.. and then suddenly she just asked me where the freakin' loo was -_- got excuse to get outta there.. so i took her there.. even though i didn't know where it was.. i did. yeah. the irony of dreams -____________-;;

hm. yeah. so then i was wondering why she was dragging her entire fat-lookin' bag, black adidas water bottle (don't even think something like that exists x_X) and whatnots. and the thing was. SHE WAS LEADING THE WAY. -_-;; so then we were there and i went 'yeah.. here's the uh.. loo.. bye' walked off.. tried to sneak outta the building.. but then i actually saw ms chew -_-;; so scary. she's outta my life!! live with it!! i think its cuz i was reading the yearbook before i slept.. hehe. o.o never ever doing that again.

yep. and then there was this random scene where crystal, curtis, some other random, yet pretty familiar kid and K were like.. roller-skatin' down the hill o.O and then we were like.. trying to make this chain thing.. i think it's just Gravitation stupidity kicking in. dahaaha. so i was like at the back of it.. so just let myself be dragged along.. if that were reality i would have plopped and landed at the bottom on my arse/head. xDD ahh! scary!! o.o

-_- my dreams are scary beyond belief~~ *goes to eat her lunch* yeah... *drowns her dumplings in vinegar xD*

-cynical shoelace
randumb punk

2004-08-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

... the atrocities of Singapore Idol.

Shanghainese Guy :: yep, i feel for you. but seriously, get the point!! you're better off on Opera Idol or somit. dehh. -_-

Bung :: really good =) yay for you!

Guy Who Sang Really Soft :: 'this is the actual volume. do not adjust your tv.' .. nuff said. -_- he reminds me of john. the way he speaks, that is. sheesh. GET A LIFEEEEE.. maybe that's a semblance of what he sounds like when he sings.. o-o

Stripper :: has to die. way passe. enough about william hung. -_-; and those speedos are ugglyyy!!

Attitude Problem Guy :: even my attitude aint' that bad and that's sayin' somit. Get a life. Seriously.

Makeover Girl :: good voice, but uhh.. yeah. contacts yes, shorter skirt, yes, but not too short.. if they make you do that.. i totally feel for you. FEEEEL.

Auntie Dress :: yep. auntie indeed. nice voice, thoughzies.

Somewhere Out The Rainbow :: er. yeah. confused somewhereoutthere with somewhereovertherainbow. sheesh. -_-;;

a lot of no-talenters. only a minimal handful of decent ones.

yep.

watched The Village today. wasn't really good, like rainbowmewy said. the ending was bad. the whole 'those we don't speak of' weren't even REAL. just a .. farce -_-;; dahhh.. it was so not what i expected. interesting take though. its like separated.. one side of the forest 18th century and the other side is 20th century, trucks and wildlife reserves and all. hehe.

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

I just realized that i haven't been writing any poems lately. Hm. I guess I've lost my touch. Or inspiration jsut hasn't hit me yet. I've been pretty much slacking in writing and drawing too.

I'm currently attempting to write an original fic titled Demon Water now, inspired by The Village. maybe i'll get more inspiration once i've actually SEEN the movei itself. i'm going to watch it tomorrow. yay.

as for drawing. indeed, i've already drawn like three more nice pictures and one so-so one.. but.. sigh. i dunno.

i think my artistic skills are lacking.

which is therefore turning me more and more into a very ordinary, typical, shallow 13-year-old.

replace the cynical with 'teen angst'.
replace the creative with 'insipid'.
replace the different with 'conventional'.
replace the dirty-minded with 'hypocrite'. (an even bigger one. sheesh.)
replace the J-rock with 'bubblegum pop'.
replace the witty with 'insipidly sarcastic'.
replace the morbid with 'normal'.
replace the insane with 'siao'.
replace the eloquent with 'basic vocabulary'
replace the running mascara with 'body glitter'.

you get the meaning.

hm.

that could make an unrhyming poem. hehe.

yay.

we still haven't managed to get the poem down. and i STILL don't have a highwayman script.

ee.

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-08T11:45:00.000+08:00

erg.

i am THIS much away from stomping my computer to death. well jackhammering it, but that's another level of violence altogether. stomping (stillettos only. daha.) will do.. for now >O

hmm.. have to go pick em up soon .. eehh. hehe.

i need firefox.

but i don't think i.e going to hold out long enough for me to go find and download it. deeeeeehh.

ee. i like this U2 vest thing i'm wearing. i'm wearing it with nothing underneath.. comfy.. makes me feel a bit like a poseur though >_> you know like some avril lavigne wannabe. she hasta die.. well after she makes some more good music then she can go die. bwahahaa.

-cynical shoelace
randumb punk. bwaha.

pia rocks. live with it X)

2004-08-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

hm.. it's august. going to start on my birthday wishlist, version one of the official ::

1) Two of the books which debate with The Da Vinci Code (excluding Secret Codes)
2) A mesh overshirt (black only)
3) hellsing artbook (been wanting that for agess..)
4) rewritable blank cds
5) spiderman 2 OST
6) My World DVD thing (Avril Lavigne's tour thingie)
7) a new scanner
8) anything by Greg Iles (cept for The Footprints of God)
9) funky earrings
10) funky sunglasses X)
11) Gothic (Lolita) platform shoes xD (size 4 =D)
12) hair curler (the manual, temporary kind .. like the one hanajima used on tohru)
13) iron pole with bloodstains XD

as of now.

getting tired.. hehe. annette, julia and tessa are coming over to do the poem thingie. hope they remember >_>

-cynical shoelace

2004-08-07T17:51:00.000+08:00

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2004-08-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

deeeeeeah.

back from the dead, like it or not. probably the latter, but live with it =)

bought four books~ yaay -> I. Lucifer, Secret Codes [The Unauthorised Guide to the Mysteries behind The Da Vinci Code], Princess in Pink (i actually didn't realize this was Give Me Five -_-;; until i unwrapped it.. hmm.. hope alex hasn't read that.. hehe.), The Alchemist.

was purposely avoiding the manga section -_-;;; wwaggh.. i soooooo need more manga. get yer stupid arse here and get em manga for me, damned bernard =). dahaha. hmm. was looking for some Greg Iles books but they didn't have.. i wanted that Phoenix one =) title tis highly intriguing.

^-^ wahh.. i want an Emily Strange notebook ~_~ desu. hehe. (Dan-talk xD)

i also want Sixsational. desu.

not only that, i love akutsu! desu. (er. that's dan speaking =D we all know how much the li'l girly brat loves gravity-defying hair thug XD)

and not only that, i'm signing off! desu.

...

dan is really getting to me. *pushes dan's bandana over his eyes* told you not to wear that.

-cynical shoelace
and her sudden obsession for underage ukes who adore aging gangstas with gray gravity-defying hair.
not that it wasn't ever there.
it rhymes!

2004-08-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

teehee~ i made it into journalism. nahaha.. was so happy i forgot to check when's the date to go for training. dahh... angelina was like AAAH GRACE'S NAME ISN'T HEREEE?!?! and i'm like looking for it and then i go 'there lah *points to Web Publishing'.

they all actually went for Illustration. dahh. sucky =D

Grace got into web publishing.. dehh... jean and diana got into News Presenting (jean no footnotes, diana's supposed to be on-location. whoo! XD).

teehee~ will be looking forward to all of this good shit. mwahahaha.

bad-luck's fanfiction site is back up!! *cries tears of joy* good things happen.. a lot..

but. I HAVEN'T DONE MY BLOODY COMPO CORRECITONS. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

never mind. and my geography too @_@

-oh punky one
cynical shoelace

2004-08-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

^Call me: cynical
^Age: 12
^Height: 155 cm (5'2")
^Hair Color: brown-black
^Eye Color: brown~~
^where im at?: eeh. room.

SECTION 2//HAVE YOU EVER??

*Peed in ur pants? = no.. alex has? =D
*Fallen off da bed? = tons.. o.o
*Had plastic surgery? = no!! xD
*Failed a grade?= duh!
*Broke someone's heart?= yeah.
*Had ur heart broken?= no. dahahaha
*Had a dream come true? = ehh. don't think so.
*Cheated on a test? = yeah =D

SECTION 3// CURRENTLY

+Wearing: my pretty Limited Too cat tshirt and pair of pwetty U2 shorts.. along with the proper unders of course.
+Eating: cherries. tehehe.
+Feeling: sian? xD
+Reading: The Footprints of God by Greg Iles. oh, and this question too ^____^
+Located: my computer chair?
+Chatting with: bernard
+Watching: the computer monitor.. o.o

+Craving: Eiji.. K... boysex.. ukes.. money.. Pocky.. x) teehee
+Should really: do my homework. aaah.

SECTION 4//DO YOU...

-Brush ur teeth? = duh?
-Like anyone? = yesh please xD
-Have any piercings? = yeahh~~ ^_^ two on each ear.
-Drive? = i'd kill mehself o.o
-Love GOD? = ^_^ i hope i can say so without making myself a hypocrite.
-Ever get off the damn computer?= think so. xD

SECTION 5// FRIENDS

+Who ARE your best? = the three stooges. yeah.
+Who is the loudest? = alex XD
+Who is the shyest? = ehh. dunno. someone.
+Who is the hottest? = ME. dahaha XDD
+Who laughs the most? = me, alex.. xDD
+Who have you known the longest?= mwee.
+Do u hang out with the opposite sex? = nah. not so much.
+Do u consider yourself popular? = dunno. no, i guess?
+Do u trust ur friends? = trust them enough. shoosh.
+Are you a good friend? = no. tehee~
+Can you keep a secret? = you mean like that utada hikaru song? ~can you keep a secret...~

SECTION 6// LAST PERSON YOU...

+Hugged: don't remember
+Talked to on da phone: bernard
+Yelled at: bernard. dehehe.
+Checked out: does Eiji's pretty uke arse count? =D
+Fell In love with: dehh.
+Tripped: just before i got on the comp XD
+Turned down: don't know.

SECTION 7// PERSONAL

+What do you want to be when u grow up?
= writer . rock star . journalist . scientist at CERN
+What was the worst day of ur life? = when meh daddy died i guess. hee.
+What has been the best day of ur life? = don't know. dont think i have one.. o.o
+What comes first in ur life? = me. xD i'm trying to make it God.. ain't easy y'know.. i'm trying though.. i'm trying..
+Do u have a boyfriend/girlfriend? = no.
+What do u usually think of before u go to bed?
=if i'll ever get to meet people as beautiful in those anime.. will i be part of them.. together.. happy.. lovely.. ah. will i get to become a shinigami when i die. whee! yep.

SECTION 8// FAVORITE

+Movie: Mean Girls, CCS the Movie, Legally Blond, Red Dragon (sucky.. but liked it?), that really sick japanese yaoi movie.. ee. all the torture!! and err.. some others. Practical Magic, etc.
+Song: lots ^_^ J-rock~~
+Group: er.
+Store: The Anime House.. Kinokuniya.. *_*
+Relative: none of the above.
+Sport: Tennisu~~
+Ice cream flavor: Chocolate Chip. duh ^_^
+Fruit: cherries. mangosteens. raspberries!! mangoes. fuji apples.. ichigo! ichigo! err.. lesse.. does chocolate count? XD
+Candy: pocky count? *_* oooh.
+Car: LAMBERGENIEEEEEEEEEESSSS.. BMWs. yep. Mercedes-Benz.
+Magazine: maxim. HAHAHA. err. M.A.G.E, Newtype, Weekly Jump etc.
+Day of the week: saturday.
+Color(z): black, purple, silver, blood red, wine red and.. PINK. dahhahah.

SECTION 9// DO YOU

+Like to give hugs? = i don't hug. i GLOMP. hee~ that's hell lot scarier ya know.. feels like your arm's gonna come off XD
+Like to walk in the rain: yeah.
+Prefer black or blue pens? = PINK. teehee.
+Dress up for halloween? = i only cosplay =)
+Have a job? = student. i'm underpaid.
+Like to travel? = no. NOOOO.
+Sleep on your side, tummy or back? = side. sometimes tummy if i feel like being a kid.. xD
+Want to marry? = yeah. i want four kids.
+Have a goldfish? = no. ee.

+Have stuffed animalz? = yeah.
+Go on vacation? : yep. japan, hong kong, las vegas, los angeles, taiping, tokyo. yay.
SECTION 10//WHAT DO U THINK ABOUT
WHEN YOU FIRST HEAR THE WORD

+Abort: computer program. AAAAAAAAAAAAH.
+Bill Clinton: must die.
+South Park: er. a heron. xD
+Summer: bimbos.
+Tattoos: stickers. xD haha.
+Piercing: noses. o.O
+Drinking: drunks. XD

2004-07-31T10:17:00.000+08:00

Who is in your celebrity family? by cerulean_dreams
User Name
Mom	Sharron Osbourne
Dad	Anthony Hopkins
Brother	Clay Aiken
Sister	Hillary Duff
Dog	Buddy
Boyfriend	Steve Irwin
Best friend	Enya

Quiz created with MemeGen!

... whoever these people are.

but. I AM NOT RELATED TO HILARY DUFF, DAMMNIT?!!? -.-" hilary duff must die. and.. IAM NOT RELATED TO CLAY AIKEN EITHER DAMMNIT?!?! *thwaps stoopid quiz maker*

2004-07-31T09:56:00.000+08:00

dyehh. gonna blog about yesterday.

ah, the dilemma of the math files. everyone was all kancheong about it xD joanna said to leave files with incomplete CONTENT PAGES on her desk, but a lot of them seemed to expect her to help file in the stuff AND do the incomplete stuffies for them. stoopid ingrates.

so then originally it was jo, gush, me, nat, mel, mai, alex all staying back to do the math files (our own, that is).

jo and gush went to ikea or somit to get hotdogs or sommat other crap and me mai and alex RAN *glares at alex* to mcds s'well. we saw a drunk there. dahahahaha. alex was like ramblin' and ramblin' on about him .. -.-" gets annoyin', ye know.

then we RAN *glares at alex again* back =^_^= jo and gush werent back yet though.. stoopid girlies. nat was at a monitress meetin' with the head pref. so i was copying stuff from julia's file, maithilli was copying from yamuna's file.. we were all gonna murder yamuna -_-; make us do so much shit lar.

the content page we weren't suppoesd to do any of revision II but yamuna did it anyway.. -.-" then we had to correction tape and redo. DAHH. well gush gave me a new one cuz had an extra before, so yeah =D also gave one to mel or someone methinks.

so we were like doing. and then telling people to shut up while they told us to shut up and we told them to shut up and er... yeah. xD

then nat came back.. gush was really nice and beforehand went down to buy ice lemon tea (dyehh. we see nat drinking it so much duh that's what she's gonna get XD) and err.. chicken wing or somit. deheheh. nat didn't eat recess though, alex told me, cuz she had to settle her math file then as well. she's gonna do it now anyway. dah.

mel, jo and gush went before time was up and the rest of us headed down to study area, but nat and alex had to leave too.. so left mai and me -_-; the two math reps.. by then mai had done away with yamuna's and used germaine's instead.. i used diana's xD more technically correct than julia's.. got more stuff too. bleh. diana's file is so bloody thick *_* mine was like half its size xDD goes to show how bleedin' irresponsible i am. dahh.

so by the time we finished and settled everything it was like 6+ and the gates to upstairs had been locked O.O asked the security guard but she said had to take the hall staircase uppies. so we did. saw mr lim and asked what we doing with all the purple files and we said looking for mrs kwok cuz she needs it. so he lets us go in the staff room xD mrs kwok's desk is near the door hee~

mr lim tells us to go tell mrs kwok (in teh hall, she is).

haha.. and mrs kwok was like 'why you so kancheong?' xDD well duh we kancheong!! wah leh of course lar.. almost no way to put down like 20 math files -.- dahh..

but seriously. those people who didn't stay back to try and do their math files are gonna be so dead. annette's deader.. tessa's half-dead (her file's friggin' thin o.o).. so are a lot of people.

ah hell.

oh wait.

I HAVEN'T MARKED MY STUFFIES.

doh.

-cynical shoelace

2004-07-29T16:29:00.000+08:00

errg. okay. enough with quizzes and stories and stuffies like that. er. what happened today.

know what? Miss Ying Must Die.

a-hem. indeed she must. well, miss wang ALSO HAS TO DIE. just read.

our seating arrangement is originally in clusters. so because Ms Wang complains and gripes to Miss Ying that we 'make too much noise' (and like which group of 40 girls don't?! huh?! unless it's a group of 40 MUTE girls or something. sheesh.). So Miss Ying LISTENS to miss wang and breaks us up into pairs.

her original plan was to mix us all up. like. 'to make new friends'. YEAH RIGHT. i mean like. here are some of the original plans (and my views on it)::

Amelia Ng + Jean :: er. in case anybody hasn't noticed, IT ISN'T POSSIBLE TO GET CLOSE TO SOMEONE IF ALL YOU HAVE IN COMMON WITH EACH OTHER IS THAT YOU'RE LEFT-HANDED. argh. amelia was like telling me in the bus. she and jean are total opposites. and she's like 'jean is too guai lor..' as in obedient arh. not strange. well, socalled obedient. this pairing is just WAY off, especially since we ain't in clusters. at least in clusters they could talk like.. through others or WITH others.

Diana + Annette :: wow. the GREATEST pairing ever. they're not even suitable for dance partners, let alone sitting with each other for the rest of the damned year! annette was like saying.. diana just yaks and yaks to herself and annette ignores diana and stuff. argh. like. really genius, miss ying. really smart.

Tessa + Atiqah :: oh. bloody. god. if what happened later on didn't happen, there'd be BLOODSHED going on between them. i mean. tessa hates atiqah, okay?! like. nobody can really change that. miss ying, it ain't gonna work. please.

Me + Rebecca :: okay, so it isn't that bad. we used to be best friends after all. but seriously.. after we split into different classes in p3 onwards, we just grew up different. i became more.. er.. rebellious, copy homework, don'tgiveashit kinda girl, but she's like the really kiddy, serious, hardworking kind of person. WE DON'T CLIQUE, MAN. and we're already friends. like. GET OUTTA HERE.

Alex + Carolyn :: ouch. there'd be bloodshed there too. 'nuff said, i tell you.

Hannah + Yamuna :: okay, this isn't exactly WWIII either, but still.. hannah isn't exactly like.. guai. =) and yamuna pretty much is. GET THE POINT, YING, THE BAD GIRLS AND THE NICE GIRLS DON'T GET ALONG.

Maithilli + Kanaga :: *see above*

and like. ALL the pairings were SO WRONG. i mean, you don't just suddenly sit next to a damned stranger and become best friends in 5 minutes like the heck she goddamned expects us too! argh!

then we all started complaining and stuff because seriously, THIS WAS SO, SO, SO WRONG. and then in the end, WHAT DOES SHE SAY? 'see lar you all complain complain until we've WASTED more than half an hour' and some more shit which makes me want to throw my table at her, with books under desk and all. ARGH. not to mention my waterbottle. it's METAL. bwaha. otherwise i wouldn't bother.

EERGG. then alex suggested 5 rows of 8 in our IPW groups so its easier to do a LOT of stuff. but NOO she doesn't want that! and is there a reason? NO! THERE IS NOT A SINGLE FUCKING REASON WHY SHE REJECTS THAT IDEA!!! okay, i'd give her like PARTIAL credit if she gave us a reason, even if it was fucking lame. like half a point, maybe. but that's all.

it's like the theory of NOT EVEN TRYING TO ANSWER EXAM QUESTIONS. SHEESH. teachers are such HYPOCRITES. they don't LISTEN.

hm. and then she arranges us in ipw groups BUT we're like all scrambled. so like first four row of left-most column are one group. then the first two rows of the right most and secondright most columns are one group. some shit like that. and it's really really complicated. i don't see WHY. who is the one making all the crap and trouble anyway?!

get outta here.

DEARGGHH.

i hate the way she says 'sinnocence' too. that's been copyrighted. and not to amanda's group either. fucking amanda. STOP PLAGARIZING. blah blah blah you didn't have enough time!! blah blah blah we were desperate! wow! so desperate people can plagarize and never get sued, huh? well that happens if you're like adult but yeah. SAME LOGIC.

erg. i always have the mention that.

i'm pissed all over again thinking about it.

DIE, YING!!!

-cynical shoelace

2004-07-29T16:21:00.000+08:00

Lovely Little Stories from Ashley's blog xD ~~shall link ashley also =D~~

*One Sunday morning during service, a 2,000 member congregation was surprised to see two men enter, both covered from head to toe in black and carrying submachine guns. One of the men proclaimed,"Anyone willing to take a bullet for Christ remain where you are."

*Immediately, the choir fled, the deacons fled, and most of the congregation fled. Out of the 2,000 there only remained around 20.

*The man who had spoken took off his hood, looked at the preacher and said "Okay Pastor, I got rid of all the hypocrites. Now you may begin your service. Have a nice day!" And the two men turned and walked out.

~~~~~~~~~

One day I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah, the beauty of God's creation is beyond description. As I watched, I praised God for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me. He asked me, "Do you love me?" I answered, "Of course, God! You are my Lord and Saviour!"

Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?" I was perplexed, I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do, the things I took for granted. And I answered, "It would be tough, Lord, but I would still love You."

Then the Lord said, "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?" How could I love something without being able to see it? Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved God and His creation. So I answered, "It's hard to think of it, but I would still love you."

The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?" How could I listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood. Listening to God's Word is not merely using our ears, but our hearts. I answered, "It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your word."

The Lord then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?" How could I praise without a voice? Then it occurred to me: God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul. It never matters what we sound like. And praising God is not always with a song, but when we are persecuted, we give God praise with our words of thanks. So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your Name."

And the Lord asked, "Do you really love Me?" With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes Lord! I love You because You are the one the true God." I thought I had answered well, but God asked, "then why do you sin?" I answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect." "Then why in times of peace do you stray the furthest? Why only in times of trouble do you pray in earnest? "

No answers. Only tears.

The Lord continued: "Why only sing at fellowships and retreats? Why seek Me only in times of worship? Why ask things so selfishly? Why ask things so unfaithfully?" The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

"Why are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading the good news? Why in times of persecution, do you cry to others when I offer My shoulder to cry on? Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?"

I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.

"You are blessed with life. I made you not to throw this gift away. I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away. I have revealed My Word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge. I have spoken to you but your ears were closed. I have shown My blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away. I have sent you servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away. I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all."

"Do you truly love me?"

I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuse. What could I say to this? When my heart cried out and the tears had flowed, I said "Please forgive me Lord, I am unworthy to be Your child."

The Lord answered, "That is My Grace, My child."

I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do you love me so?"

The Lord answered, "Because you are My creation. You are my child. I will never abandon you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you. When you are down, I will encourage you. When you fall, I will raise you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I will be with you till the end of days, and I will love you forever."

Never have I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold? How could I have hurt God as I had done?

I asked Jesus, "How much do you love me?" Jesus answered, "This much" as He stretched His arms and died on the cross for me. (And you too!)

I then bowed down at the feet of Christ, My Saviour. And for the first time, I truly prayed.

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daa =X

2004-07-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

How to make a cynical shoelace

Ingredients:

3 parts eccentricity

3 parts self-sufficiency

5 parts energy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

DAHAHAHAHA.

2004-07-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

hm. finally submitted my audition form. the topic for the writing thing was 'peace'. couldn't really concentrate, diana's insipid speech about dreams and isabella and some other girls' even more insipid chattering disturbed me way too much. dehhh!!! annoying imbeciles.

insipid insipid insipid. DAH.

i have a pretty avatar.

Cut Me Open.

bwaha.

hm. some people just die off without me. why can't some people just LIVE without me? okay, so this applies WAY more to nadiah and co. than sarah though. hm. at least sarah has the mind to go start life anew, i just read in her blog (MUST she mention me in every entry? -_-). nadiah? God knows where she died off to. her blog is 'under maintainence'. maintainence my bloody foot.

ah well. means she isn't using my blogskins anymore. good then. dahahaha.

dehh.. going to go for a movie this saturday with nat and annette and maybe some other people. haven't decided what to watch yet.. ehh. anyway will tell mom about it. i have to get her present on the way also, even if it IS one month in advance. i plan to keep the present a secret. i'll try anyway. will keep it somewhere where mint will not chew it to bits, collect dust or suddenly grow mold/fungi.

dahahahaha. maybe i'll go to bugis afterwards and get her that keychain or pair of earrings she wanted the other time. dehh. i can't even remember which one though. ah wells. guess i'll know if i see it.

hope so. better be. dehh.

heh. i just realize i don't tell my blog a lot of things. ah, what the shit. some things better off not written down and being forgotten about.

i'm going to attempt an exchange-student-program prince of tennis fanfiction: boys included. i plan to deve--

shit. wait. let me continue. i plan to develop Sakuno and Kawamura's character more through these characters (they're both going to be hosting) and to make it realistic, not everybody in PoT cast will host. After all, they're supposed to be deliquents which Seigaku is completely terrorized by. Horio's hosting too. He can host err.. Keane, i guess. mahahaha. Well, Horio ain't straight. Never was, never will. So guess it fits the bill. Hm.

If I didn't plan to keep my fic PG-13, i'd include that scene i saw in some yaoi manga.. can't be bothered to go dig it out -_-; it was the one with the cute grandpa in it. arrggh.. just want to squish that grandpa.

eh. speaking of squishy, was playing with all those wristrests today. heee~ was torturing all of em and hitting nat on her flabby head with it (dAHAHAA... flabby head).

hm. what was i going to say/ oh yeah. speaking of planning, i have to go do my CCS reivew. argh. see ya.

-xxanonymous
xxquitethcynic@lifeblood.com

2004-07-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

da~ da~~ incredibly bored. >_< listening to Chiisana Inori now ^-^ waii! it's got such sweeeeeeeeeeeeet vocals x)

~~ ^_^ ~~

dah.

DAH.

oh.

OOH.

pierrot. Adolf.

Pierrot singing Adolf = me in fangirl mode.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~~~~~~ pierrot-sama TT

eh.

-cynical shoelace
the brat's got SPUNK ++ the brat is me

i should do a blogskin titled 'Brat's got spunk' xD *goes off to search for pic of spunky ryoma/somebody*

2004-07-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

ehh. -_-; mighty sleepy.. but don't wanna sleep yet.

i feel like.. half-dead.. worked a bit on Misadventures.. then stopped.. ideas getting dry.. i think i'm almost there to making Kyoko non-MS though. mwaha. -_-zz eeeerg. why doesn't my chair have likee.. armrests. dah.

dyeh.. talking to bernard now.. he's like .. 'you have the cutest voice i've ever heard'. stoopid bastard. yeah right. -_-zzz

i like courier new bolded better than normal.. hehe i just changed it on msn. i'm thinking of changing the blogskin layout to my Stardom is Deadly one also. sigh. i need to work on my sewing. omg, i don't even know where it is.. see if i can convince some people to die with me.. >_< dahhh nuu *sob* erg.

deh.

i've got a headache from all the radiation too. this suckss lah.. methinks 'll try to write somemore of Misadventures. i always get udden bouts of inspirtaion when i'm this sleepy.

mom went out to play mahjong so i guess she wouldn't be coming home that soon. it's midnight now though. dyehhh. *yawn* AARGH.

-cynical shoelace <--too lazy to capitalize.. -_-;

p.s gomen for any typo errors.. my eyelids are at half-mast now.. >_< so can't see like.. half of everything i'm used to seeing. dyehhhhhh.

2004-07-24T17:25:00.000+08:00

dyeehh. Asperger's syndrome ehh... after lots of futile contemplation, gave up trying to think what the crappy shit it is and asked sharon. ^^ here it iss..

Asperger's syndrome

Asperger Syndrome or (Asperger's Disorder) is a neurobiological disorder named for a Viennese physician, Hans Asperger, who in 1944 published a paper which described a pattern of behaviors in several young boys who had normal intelligence and language development, but who also exhibited autistic-like behaviors and marked deficiencies in social and communication skills. In spite of the publication of his paper in the 1940's, it wasn't until 1994 that Asperger Syndrome was added to the DSM IV and only in the past few years has AS been recognized by professionals and parents.

Individuals with AS can exhibit a variety of characteristics and the disorder can range from mild to severe. Persons with AS show marked deficiencies in social skills, have difficulties with transitions or changes and prefer sameness. They often have obsessive routines and may be preoccupied with a particular subject of interest. They have a great deal of difficulty reading nonverbal cues (body language) and very often the individual with AS has difficulty determining proper body space. Often overly sensitive to sounds, tastes, smells, and sights, the person with AS may prefer soft clothing, certain foods, and be bothered by sounds or lights no one else seems to hear or see. It's important to remember that the person with AS perceives the world very differently. Therefore, many behaviors that seem odd or unusual are due to those neurological differences and not the result of intentional rudeness or bad behavior, and most certainly not the result of "improper parenting".

By definition, those with AS have a normal IQ and many individuals (although not all), exhibit exceptional skill or talent in a specific area. Because of their high degree of functionality and their naivet辿, those with AS are often viewed as eccentric or odd and can easily become victims of teasing and bullying. While language development seems, on the surface, normal, individuals with AS often have deficits in pragmatics and prosody. Vocabularies may be extraordinarily rich and some children sound like "little professors." However, persons with AS can be extremely literal and have difficulty using language in a social context.

copied from her blog. hehe i have one or two symptons i guess. but then again could be due to my err.. other more.. SEVERE.. mental diseases.

yep.

anyway. just acquired lots of pretty new avatars! whee! go me xD found a bunch of gackt avatars too.. sent the link to mei.

ehh. i have so much to do >_<

-Cynical Shoelace

2004-07-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

ee. can't believe i forgot to blog about what elssee happened today. bahh.. what a forgetful gaki i am xD fear the gaki! we rule and you can't do anythinga bout it except worship us so we won't err.. overrun your humble abode with our noisy, squealing chibi army xD

t'day was speech day so we got let off early. noon. MWAHA. xD me, nat, amelia, gushy and atiqah went to go watch the basketball match RGS vs. SMSS.

RGS won. AGAIN. as they have been for the past few years. DIE RGS!! mwahhaa.

RGS stands for Retarded Girls' School.

eh, okay, so i was being biased there. so sue me.

err. so score was 50-35. bahh. we all cheered and screamed whenever we scored though. and 11 from our team is like 11 on Shohoku.. like. THE SCORER. mwahaha. 9, 11 and someone else are really good players. 9 is Sheila or something. 11 is ehh.. dunno her name.

there was this girl on court from RGS.. no. 5 or something i think and at first i actually mistook her for this geeky-lookin' wet-behind-the-ears kid of the more stupid gender. harhar. okay, so i'm not saying the girl was stupid, it's just that boys are more stupid than girls ^^ or should i say, intellectually challenged? hehe.

eh. erm. what else. uh. nothing.

eh. well. =D after watching the game i have inspiration to write SD fics again. YAY! hehehe.. must watch more games ^-^ INSPIRATION! INSPIRATION! come to chibi~~

....;;

-Cynical Shoelace

2004-07-23T18:28:00.000+08:00

ehh. nat's photocopying the audition form for me ^^ ehh.. you can only choose 3 areas... T_T wahh..

anyway..

Journalism, Web design, Animation

Not sure which order though. Web design i have to maintain the site a lot so i guess that's like last choice ^^ hmm.. Journalism i really really wanna do x) but it's pretty tough i guess.. gotta write all the articles and stuff -_-; i need a lot of resources for statistics and shit too. mwahhhh. *_*

ehh. but whatever ^^ i'm gonna do it! yeahh!! going to fully commit myself *_* i need to start compiling my portfolio though.. must finish up my unfinished blogskins (well cept for the We Are Whores one. xD) and stick em in as well.. i guess i'll include the sample review i did for M.A.G.E as well + all the other articles i did for em. must separate into files and stick a li'l note (Notepad!! whee!! Lucida Console! XD) innit all .. mwahaha.

ehh. shit. need a cd cover -_-; arrrrgh. xD why can't floppy disks have more spacceeee.. @_@

hmm... since i lost vanessa's blogskin gotta redo >_< ahhhh the painful horrors. eeeeee.. oh well at least i know what to do now ^^

o_o i forgot to publish. it's like.. 8 pm now.. i left at 6 pm.. o_O

2004-07-22T17:26:00.000+08:00

hm. something highly amusing happened to me today.

you know (well 1e5 people know i guess xD) we had to write that diary entry of King Dushyanta or whatever his bleeding insignificant name is diary entry thingie.

yeah. so whatever. originally ms ying was gonna read alex's or somebody's then she came to me for a more 'entertaining' entry. eh. why not annette? my parodizing, degrading prose is pretty much NOT 'entertaining'.

so anyway by 'chance' or 'inevitable', whichever shit you prefer, i had the 'F word' in there. yep. as in FUCK. okay, so it wasn't exactly in present tense. more like uhh.. whatever you call the thing you add 'ing' to. eh. yeah. so 'fucking' it was.

so. er. yeah. she said 'i'm uh.. very.. shocked by this..', i just stare at her, deadpanned and all like i usually am towards stuff like these. oi, it's not like first time somebody's given me that kinda reaction. i mean. whatEVER.

no math today lor ^^ so she came in again during the free period and told me to go to the office. yeah right. eh. yeah well that what she said. then we went. at first i was pretty much walking behind her, then when going down the stairs i went ahead in front of her. no teacher expects a student to do that, i know. so i dashed headlong down beyond the staff room and suddenly she calls me back and says it's THERE.. so i'm like 'eh. but office down there *points*' and she's like 'no, here.' and i go 'uh. okay.' and follow her in.

into the staff room we go. i stay outside and watch her go in but then ask her 'do i follow you or something?' and she's like yeah, so i go in.

and this other woman (Some indian lady. looks a li'l like auntie vicki from p.school. don't know her name.. but i think i've seen her around. abnormally huge, sunken eyes, horrifically highlighted hair in big, fat curls which resemble hairballs (you know the stuff cats hack up. like. *HACK* and there goes a ball of fur by your foot. be grateful it's dry, epitome of flatulence. ehe.).

then she utters some crap.

more crap.

i just answer whatever she asks. like on this semi-automatic mode lar.. my brain picks up on question, i revert to normal mode and answer. the rest of the time nearly catatonic.. cept i don't just stare blankly into space. i CAN act according to protocol when called for, you know.

but seriously. what she told me, i could answer back. but nooooo of course not.. i don't wanna stand there getting scolded at by her in the rather North Pole-esque temp. of the staff room, particularly when i'm standing and not in the mood to become part of the Milne Ice Shelf or an exhibit in a random North Polish museum (a farfetched notion. nonetheless..).

hm. yeah. i think i heard her mention something about regular checks to my CJ for more 'abusive language'. ehh. as far as i'm concerned, 'fuck' is a four-letter word containing the letters 'f' 'u' 'c' 'k'.

yep. so back to free period in math. i was drawing on a blank page in my CJ (ehh.. don't intend to stick anything there. so just draw. hehe.) and then i had this sudden urge to write 'fcuk' on the sleeve of the shirt or something.

nobody can actually say anything about that, because fcuk is a brand. a clothes brand. and you know what? it's (very much literally, i may add) in black and white hanging from a bloody post in that err.. shopping mall. dunno which one. the one near esplanade and connected to City Hall MRT station (yeah.. i think it was city hall. eh.).. never quite caught the name but i adore that mall. spacious and lovely =) you can see idiots hiphopping and whatnot crap in the spaciousness of the city hall station too ^^ a perfect place for writing and drawing.

ehh. okay. so i was straying a bit there. back to the original subject.

er. what was it again? *looks up* oh yeah. ehe. but i didn't write that larh. you know how teachers are. they unreasonably point out faults. i mean like even when it AIN'T a fault. they just always have to be right. no way.

i'm more intelligent than you think, you sorry lameass excuses for authority.

you don't like me?

*shrug* your loss.

-Cynical Shoelace -----

Anyway, on to happier stuff. nat's CGing the girl i drew plus this other kawaii boy i drew (he's wearing OP board shorts and that's the only reason annette approves of him -_-;;). hm and what else? oh yeah. got back compo test. i got 18/30. mwahaha. well basically because it supposed to be a 'story' and not a 'reflection'.

story structure = orientation, problem/event, 'climax', resolution [coda]

my story = has orientation (introduces the main character and allegedly the protagonist.), has problem/event (the main character reminisces about the protag, talks a bit about the past [of what happened so readers KNOW. hear that?!!], blahdy blahdy blah..), climax (eh. well. i forgot the story -_-; basically there is a climax), resolution (she leaves. forever.)

we had to INCOPORATE the 4 objects NOT make them the MAIN POINT of the story.

i am pretty sure that technically, INCORPORATE does not equal MAIN POINT or MUST HAVE SIGNIFICANCE.

she didn't specify in instructions that the four objects COULDN'T be metaphors. so i used it as so. but nooo, that ain't allowed. i mean, how the crap am i supposed to know, man?! like.. stoopid lah..

eh. anyway. need to go collect some info on the CCS article. what i plan to dooo~~

-Summary for the movies (1st movie [unknown title] and The Enchanted Cards). must find out the title of the first movieeeee.. -_-;;;;
-Find out if there's an OVA or something.
-Little corner on the CCS specials, like 'Kero-chan's Corner' (well i dunno what it is originally i only know the dub name. eh. i suck.) and the Tomoyo's special as well.
-Bit on the manga. Just like how many volumes and stuff.
-Brief character profiles
-Artbooks, etc.
-Unnecessary facts you never notice. XD
--Both Syaoran and Meiling's battle costumes have bells, but you don't hear them ring
--Their clothes don't wrinkle.
--Eh. Actually that's about it. I think Il'l just delete this part and stick in that as an afternote or something. Yep.
-DO NOT ELABORATE on the whole Yukito/Syaoran thing. Or maybe I should and stick it under a separate section. Yeah, I should. Yay. I rock!!
-Include some of the chants or something. Yeah.. gotta get oh so-not-almighty Seme-sama to go help me find. ehh.. guess i'll just stick with translations. keyword: TRANSLATION. not dub ^^ no release and dispel crapness.
-Compare between CCS and Nelvana's dubbed CC.
-Annihilate all Nelvana staff. MWAHAHAHAHAHA.

Yep. Fenrir had BETTER NOT cut it or something. cuz i'll kill her. like. *STAB*. mwahaha.

-Cynical Shoelace

2004-07-21T18:23:00.000+08:00

Ah. My new blog.

Hello all.